had quite a wild night yesterday. went to zouk for the school bash organised by the student body. immediately we all had this 42 below thing at the wine bar which is of lots of this sour plum alcohol in shot size. there were lots of them; everybody (there were around 10 plus of us) had at least 3 of those shots. then came two jugs of tiger beer under one for one promotion. and thanks for those peeps remembering that i was the last one to ord in the group i had to (but failed because of the air inside the beer) bottoms up. didn't have that for a long time and i can only say that it...sucks. bitter after taste.

it was the very first time i had a mixture of alcoholic drinks (at this point of time i realised it's wrong) and still felt ok; damn red face as usual but lasted for longer that night. but i was very sure i was in the high mode (without feeling dizzy) and made myself quite a joke in the toilet.

finally went into zouk proper and had another round of don't know whatever bomb thing that comes with red bull. and still conscious after that (i really feel that i improved or something haha). danced and eventually went home after a small supper session with some of them.

ok i admit it- it can be very addictive. self control self control....

started sleeping at around...say 3.30am plus? and had to wake up at around 7.30am, drag myself up with a small drizzle (in other words conducive weather to continue sleeping) out there and reach school at 9.30am for re-enrolment. and in the end? reached at 10am. but still on time (guess time allowances given because of the weather). then a trip to macdonald for lunch at king albert park before my last business statistics lesson started at 12. finally felt the tiredness kicking in by then...during the most important lesson before the exam -.-

damn broke now. and in no mood for assignment now. gonna run (i hope) tomorrow morning.

it just feels weird to suddenly see people barge in and be serious about something. or am i being too sensitive?

today's a mental torture. i can't believe that i am draining myself away with the rest too. on the overall i was pissed, sad and eventually mood-less...like now.

somehow i am hardworking enough to post something before i fall unconscious for the night.

been very busy with project work recently. but saying of being busy...i was still able to play and relax a bit here and there? oh gosh i need to check myself.

perhaps of the really impending dateline everybody seems to really (and finally) putting in more effort. hopefully this can go on to our last project- which has to appear from thin air within two weeks.

i will consider myself damn lucky to have my course shortened to two years due to an automatic allocation of advanced standing. in general all polytechnic students were given 8 modules worth of exemptions; so it also means a year worth of time and money saved.

the staff emphasized on the fact that we need major in management and minor in one of the options (finance, marketing and human resource). is this better? time and monetary wise yes. but others? i am still not sure. not much time to conclude this either. at least not now.

this afternoon i told my friend what's left single should be flawed. but on the flip side- i am part of it too.

perhaps it takes a lot of courage to follow your heart.

i know...i know.

really damn tired. i mean in the brain. it's so hard to work with people who aren't even focused. yes again i know it's difficult to work that out...but to zone out...

so what if you walk the talk?

no time, no money- really no talk.

almost everyone of us live to die. do you die to live?

innovation at its simplest. maybe i over think but...some how it also serves as some form of reflection for me? i mean in a sense...most of the innovation we see nowadays are mainly technological/commercial ones. they are not as 'humane' as before...oh well. as long as you get the idea.

if i can achieve social entrepreneurship...how shiok would that be.

one paper with shaky confidence down. but surprisingly it seems that i might do ok for it. haha. (p.s. thanks jun cheng!)

assignments come flooding back. and what about part time job?

and seems like the next three years in sim...is only on books and maybe lots of eating.

英雄也是寂寞的阿...

maybe the timing just isn't right. maybe you are not the right one. maybe i am not right.

suppose it's gonna be a busy/tiring weekend for me.

i wonder...whether i am too hyped up with the assignments. now there's voices that point out that i'm thinking too much into the assignment. but i'm doing this simply because:

- this is our first semester of projects; everybody's not sure of the lecturers' expectations

- we are really short of time; therefore i don't wanna come back to this piece of work some time later to review it again

- we are a group of six- but of it i can frankly say at most four are actively engaged in discussion

- seems like i'm the only one interested to get try a distinction

how i wish i can be kept busy (productively) and be away from things i wanna run away/hide/avoid from. now say no money...next time say no time...and next time i would still not be ready. still me.

main gist- who would like some who's a bore and not confident?