two weeks of training so far. rough and tough. though till we are able to fulfill the expectations set but there's still times when something major crops up and kill my morale for the rest of the day.

my dear friend weijun is going to aussie next wednesday...bon voyage! but once he touches down on the dawn of 15th october, he will go straight to rainie yang's concert...$178 seat some more. reminds me of the $250 plus ticket my friend bought for the k pop concert...just for snsd. -.-

but that being said...if coldplay were to come again...or let's say the sm town concert next year is featuring boa...HM. haha.

i've decided to look out for a watch- properly. buying those cheap watches will only be a waste of my time and money. but what my parents have been recommending to me are kind of...too matured for me you know. looks like i am too fixated on that police watch.

looks like i'm really have a thing against birthday gifts for a 21 year old.

this week is still fine. just that i've got myself fatter and up till now without any exercise for the week. tomorrow morning. dumb bells and abs. tomorrow morning. haha.

i am going for the armskoteman course next week. but by myself. kind of bored.

saw a watch i really liked! suddenly felt like going on a watch hunt. especially after my mother said that she's willing to buy me one...but that's really quite expensive...plus i wouldn't really be happy with the watch...as compared to me spending to buy it myself. to me a watch represent a guy's social status...so if people thought you are some rich kid when it was actually given...just sounds kind of silly arh? haha.

i've never felt so confident. and if it works out...i might be able to see her again? what a perfect dream huh.

"steady...take a deep breath...and go!"

woke up quite early to find out that i couldn't run because of rain.

went out to chinatown to have lunch with some of my poly classmates. went to e2max to play raving rabbids afterwards. was about to continue hanging around at orchard when my mum wants me to go home and mop the blardy floor. god damn it. totally spoiled my mood for today.

"you can stand in a sea of people...but in your own world you are a lone wolf on a mountain."

damn tough week. got back to jurong camp at monday to start...spiking. for those who don't understand how tiring it is, that means you have to use a big mallet to hammer a metal T-shaped like thing into the ground to hold on the ropes attached that will ultimately secures a mast- a 12 or 15 metre structure that holds the antenna on the top from the strong winds and stuff.

if it's just a few per day maybe still ok. but we were doing it almost everyday. and some more 3 or 4 such spikes for three times a day. under some tough grounds too.

blisters muscle aches all these are still manageable. then suddenly the armskote was handed over to me. with lots of catching up, checks and stuff to do on top of the daily training. i was busy with it even till the last minute before i can book out. either way it's gonna be a very busy period for me till november bah...with all the trainings...even armskote course and test on our operational proficiencies. but of course i will still be fine during weekends...just being more busy.

there was this period where we had to be split into various pairings to work together. this pairing will last for the rest year ahead- till we finish ns. so it's something quite important. out of unforeseen circumstances i had to make a decision of swooping places with another guy. but fact is i can't decide- there's pairs who don't want to be swooped away, people who want to just stick to the vehicle they are good at...

so that was the moment when everybody were looking up to me for my decision and yet selfishly guarding their own interests. the details are not worth elaborating but either way i was damn disappointed with all the two-faces.

am waiting for ops recall now...praying hard that we don't have to be recalled...please...feel like going out to town...but out all alone?

she sms-ed me again. but the conversation seems a bit... awkward. aiya...i am distracting myself away while i am distracted. what a joke.

and now looks like i've made ashley feel worse. to think of it i guess i will face something similar too when she (might) moves away. sighs. in the end i am still a bad talker.