another week of rubbish. full of drama. hopefully it's a 100% week of low key ahead.

decided to change my subscription of newsweek to time magazine before the end of may. a bit too pro-american for the former.

gonna sell off the disappointing a-jays two away. even a twenty dollars pair of in-ear phones can win it. aiming for a creative x-fi player instead after experiencing the power of just attaching an amplifier to your mp3 player (costs a bit too though- $148).

i am seeing a lot of subjective people nowadays. nevertheless feeling 'sick' as always.

sometimes i feel like i am a rubbish bin.

62 dollars to the japanese red cross society. still wondering whether it will help or not.

there's so many things in my head that needs to be decided:

- university admission

- bank loan

- ord trip

is this the supposedly adult life that i always looked forward to when i was still a secondary school kid?

and the worst of all is that the tower card still lingers in my mind.

maybe you shouldn't have appeared again. and i should just keep on preparing myself till i feel confident again...but when will that be?

tsk...f*ck it.

how i wish i can just stay high with all the beer.

if it's anybody else getting married- not that i will give a damn.

but you...

looks like the clock will never go back in time.