"the times when we are truly ourselves."

many times we hear about leaving a good impression on others, many sweet honey moon periods for couples, good friendships which turn bad or even into hatred...

some times i can't help but wonder...who are we when we are in front of others? how about that self when there's only you in the room? the way we present ourselves in front of others...is it just a layer for the masquerade parade?

i am sure many of the things we heard of start off in this familiar situation- guy is considerate, girl is sweet then later either side of the party will tell you about the cooling off period when all the passion is vanishing and...but wait. why would the passion fade when you like that person for who he/she is? unless you have zero idea what/who you are doing/liking, or else it might be a fade of that personality you used to like isn't it?

this is purely a personal experience...and my conclusion? be yourself. if you are a boring person (like me)- so be it. you wanna change? for? the opposite gender? your friend who doesn't like you in any way? your pet dog? i say just change for yourself. BUT never change for the sake of changing- it wastes your time and the other party's.

yes in this society people might dislike you for not in the main stream, not friendly, closed up etc...but you see, you live once. live it the way you want it. have your unique style.

is there something like "i'll get back to you some other day...when i am richer?"

what's that feeling when you just wanna pose a question with an obvious answer- and that person is having a "do not disturb" sign on the neck?

"the ability to change a fact is something; the experiencing of change is quite another."

have not been in a nice mood to post recently. some how feeling staisfied to just rot the days off before i start school again. had a few times of me logging in and looking at the dashboard...and decided not to update the bin.

well my june is like what i said- full of lazy bones. in camp i got very addicted to this turn based strategy game on psp and at home i am stuck with watching running man through the net.

have also been spending (and spending) for almost anything...and seems like it will go on. let's see...i've got myself tees, klipsch s4, portable hard drive, buffet- and still looking around for new spectacles, phone, shorts and clothings.

then my birthday is...like the usual. but thanks to weijun and darren.

went to sim for enrolment/administrative session. going for the sutdent union's orientation camp (i don't know why they would still call it a camp when it's two days one night.)

looked around...saw a guy or two that i know of...that's it. oh well.

looks like the human mind can control its instincts. but for everything i (wanna) take, i give away something (sometimes a lot).