well this week...i guess i experienced quite a change of culture when the guys from the trunk comm company finally take us over.

some old birds say this batch of officers and sergeants tend to be more lax on 'dogs' like us...which we didn't believe them at first. and suddenly i felt more like i have already gone through uip...almost anything is possible now...like getting stuff from vending machines, locker layout (in terms of item quantity) for stand by bed not as strict as before, able to bring in mp3 players etc (we even got macdonald delivery at thursday night).

now i am starting to like uip. while the transferred guys over at command comm company might feel even better with their routines, we do not have much to complain about too. now how i wish that this could drag (quite possibly true as people are all busy with exercises) as long as possible...

oh ya. 1 thing is that it seems certain that i will go taiwan at may (unless unforeseen circumstances occur). second is that after the trip we might be posted to driving camp for training...sounds good to me.

anyway there's this guy whom we teased him throughout the week as his admirer (for 3 years leh) flew to australia for studies. as he couldn't send her off personally (he was in camp), he also couldn't gather his courage to confess to her throughout these 3 years. i was also in the 'fun'...poking at him whenever possible. but i felt a little bad as what he is experiencing is just like mine (yes, nicole?).

but on the other hand i was thinking- wouldn't one get more confident to confess should he spend more time to know her and make sure that she's really his cup of tea? or maybe i am too much of a noob ass to make a statement like this.

as there's more time to sit around and rest, i walked into my thoughts again. then i felt that maybe many things could have changed should sheryl be in a different pair of arms...we knew it could be positive for us at some point of time...and it's not like a day or two kind of feeling ( i spent quite a bit of time at poly year 1 to know her better...until she chose another guy -.-). jo might not walked into my eyes...and we could have lasted till now.

i guess i have to pour this out here...as this is one of my regrets till now (3 in total and counting).

i remember we (ashley, lucinda and me) talked about when will we plan to marry in the future at ashley's house. without thinking much i replied 30 plus. while they felt it's kind of late (i naively thought of it as 27-28 previously), i thought with my social circle (guys and more guys) now and my age when i start working (at least 24- true young enough but i will focus on paying back my loan and my career/entrepreneurship first. so money and time all tied up.)...and of course with the fact that i am another noob in the field...well.

i said, "bread first then love mah." at that night. sounds like a hardcore right winger? nah. humans are impressions-based creatures. i don't have something that allows me to do the reverse.

speaking of which i felt disgusted of the stomp series on what attracts guys/girls on the opposite gender. the guys interviewed mainly agreed that the figures of a woman will attract them first. how true. how ugly.

i simply reviewed on myself...i guess partly due to my family background (in which we don't really share with each other how we feel as openly), i feel i need more like a soul mate whom i can confide in...somebody who is more intellectual, independent and has the charm to knock me down and of course caring and understanding. superficial factors wise...perhaps a killer smile too? have a build and height similar to mine? ya that's about all. bonuses wise...then maybe killer legs. oh ya similar fashion sense (or something close to metropolitan).

yeah i said "aiya it's my self esteem that's killing me." i am just being arrogant and be more rational to blind my heart.

some pictures i found over the net. beware apple fans.

oh ya...should i apply for public universities again? because my mind was set on taking private degrees...and now upon closer look, the degrees provided by kaplan...well the partner universities are relatively unknown as compared to those from sim...how how how?

oh ya before i start busying back to the dog camp...

farewell my dear friend ashley!

it feels too soon for you to go back. but oh well...

either way, have a smooth trip back and i hope while you start leading a more care-free life without the burden of your society commitments, you must also work on hard on your studies leh...

all the best.

i would say it's quite a weird timing for me to post something here now. supposed to be at outside but was called off at the last minute. so i guess it's gonna be a stagnant weekend at home before i go back to hell. or maybe i should just find something else to do besides rotting outside.

went to jurong camp at wednesday morning for report. had no idea at all of what was gonna happen to me. everything gets worse. out of proportion standardisation, regimentation and so many crap are gonna to be thrown at my face during our unit induction programme (uip). basically due to the culture of the camp, imagine the months ahead of me to be a tekan session.

first day of uip- setting up of our bunk. we had to do everything ourselves- moving cupboards, bed frames and cleaning the room within a short time. well since it's meant to be a tekan session we got ourselves awarded with 50 push ups and 100 crunches just for stand by area. needless for me to say the stuff for the rest of the day i guess.

standardisation...yes. everything must be consistent for us- from the quantity of of our hangers hanging in our cupboards to the brand of our toothpastes in our field pack. logical? for those who are thinking at this point of time, i guess you need more cow sense.

three days were enough for us. i wonder how am i gonna take it just for the week ahead. the feeling to down my pes status is so strong in my mind. but on the other hand it will also mean i will part with my friends who came along with me from stagmont camp. what complexity.

so after getting out from the camp yesterday i got to home dry despite the heavy rain (a big thanks to wei keong's parents who offered me the trip back home). got back, unpacked my stuff and went over to ashley's house for dinner. lucinda (my secondary classmate) came shortly and we had a fair bit of chat over at the dining table.

then we moved up to her room to continue till around...1.30am? well time really flies and she's gonna go back at monday night. at the best to you ashley...tahan a bit more and you will be graduating with a degree cert leh...while i am still wasting my time off in our 'decisive' force.

slept at 2am. and was able to wake up at 7am...surprisingly. kind of pushed myself to go jogging as planned. and now here i am staying at home doing nothing much...sighs. everything's stuck.

didn't really feel like posting...because soon i will rest, wake up and report to jurong camp. maybe it should spell like hell too.

supposedly to go malaysia with my parents to visit my relatives yesterday...in the end we decided to play safe due to the fact that nobody from the camps are informed. so i was home alone for a day or so.

should say it's dumb for me not to inform the rest that my house is empty for last night. so after paying a visit to ashley's house i rushed off to town for a last minute arrangement with darren and weijun for movie. well thanks to my last minute we can't really get tickets with suitable time slots for 14 blades nor little big soldier (there was a slot for little big soldier but the only available seats left were 2 rows away from the screen -.-)

so in the end we went to ashton @ cathay for late dinner. darren and i talked mainly on the business and stuff (sadly what darren said about the local IT industry is true) while weijun mainly shared his experience when he was at taiwan.

when we finished our dinner i suddenly had the urge to go to the sofa seats at the cathay movie lobby. the building beside cathay (think it's an art school) is so tall now...and i kept staring at smu- one of the dreams i thought i can achieve 3 years back while seated at the same spot.

well at that point of time nobody told me i can lose 2 dreams at once. but the aftertaste has long gone away from my throat.

maybe all these that i've brought upon myself is gonna spur me to just focus on my career.

maybe i should say thanks to hello kitty and ah meng.

p.s.- get well soon for ashley's dad.

2 months flew just like that...time in the signal institute is especially fast. so now i will have to move on to my new unit (even though i know i will miss some of my bunk mates- especially edmund foo aka werewolf/slut. haha.)

good news- i didn't report to the camp at friday (we got posted out at thursday)...so we will go there at wednesday morning. oh ya and some how i received the best detachment award. -.-

bad news- i got posted to 3rd battalion! man...god knows what will happen to me at there...

so today i went to watch true legend with weijun and yonghui...was almost late for the show thanks to me...haha. anyway the movie...if i am lenient i should say it's still ok bah...but i would prefer to re-watch ip man again.

got back home a while before i set off to clementi to meet jun cheng up for dinner. usual stuff to chat about...getting more and more confident bah i would say...as ideas are starting to solidify.