some interesting newspaper header:
心开就开心
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been too lazy to just exercise for a while. all the lard's gathering to create a new continent...sighs.
2.20.2009
well i might be wrong...but my guts and balls tell me that you are looking at my posts. took too long to sense it perhaps but...so what?
if you are the one talking about the vicious cycles etc...you are the one who is in a real cycle.
i just merely stopped moving around in circles. i don't wanna get myself dizzy in circles.
i appreciate that you utilised your brain cells to interpret my msn personal message on "slavesoftrance" for that short period of time...but please. there was a time when i longed to see you. but the more i think of it, the more i realised how foolish i was...how naive we were. perhaps that should explain what happened when we crossed each other at jurong east.
to me letting go means i don't go pester you this and that. this blog is my mental dump ground. i feel it stupid to keep it private just to not let you see it since not many people knows of its existence. it wasn't meant to affect others and start repsonding in any manner. it's just my dumping ground.
if you are the one talking about the vicious cycles etc...you are the one who is in a real cycle.
i just merely stopped moving around in circles. i don't wanna get myself dizzy in circles.
i appreciate that you utilised your brain cells to interpret my msn personal message on "slavesoftrance" for that short period of time...but please. there was a time when i longed to see you. but the more i think of it, the more i realised how foolish i was...how naive we were. perhaps that should explain what happened when we crossed each other at jurong east.
to me letting go means i don't go pester you this and that. this blog is my mental dump ground. i feel it stupid to keep it private just to not let you see it since not many people knows of its existence. it wasn't meant to affect others and start repsonding in any manner. it's just my dumping ground.
2.19.2009
frustrating.
it's my habit to hesitate when i have options. a very bad one.
things always change. some did for a reason but some don't.
i have no idea what will i become tomorrow. because i can't expect tomorrow to be a sunny one when my today's a fog. how strong will i be with the rain tearing me down? i don't have the answer. but i guess i have chosen to not be others' burden anymore.
maybe it's just a nicely written excuse to hide away my arrogance. but either way i know i suck at all these human relationships kind of stuff. perhaps i am better with animals.
life is too long.
it's my habit to hesitate when i have options. a very bad one.
things always change. some did for a reason but some don't.
i have no idea what will i become tomorrow. because i can't expect tomorrow to be a sunny one when my today's a fog. how strong will i be with the rain tearing me down? i don't have the answer. but i guess i have chosen to not be others' burden anymore.
maybe it's just a nicely written excuse to hide away my arrogance. but either way i know i suck at all these human relationships kind of stuff. perhaps i am better with animals.
life is too long.
2.14.2009
thursday
last day of my attachment at chinatown. was almost like slacking throughout the 1st half of the day until the last minute stuff came in. had to rush through the stuff etc. but in the end was quite late for the dinner reserved by my colleagues.
the meal was at far east plaza. nice cosy place. their main speciality is their grilled stuff in sticks...too bad i am lazy to upload the photos here...anyway thanks again for those who accompanied me for the dinner. nice working experience with you guys and all the best. =)
friday
had to go back to school for debrief. had one of the last few lunches in fc6 with my friend. then the debrief. damn boring and long winded. handed up my logbook to my liaison officer. a sign of freedom.
celebrated friend's birthday. had dinner at some vivocity cafe. later we went to sentosa for the musical fountain. followed by a short stroll on the beach (meaning a bunch of us disturbing those couples celebrating an early valentine's day).
that night was actually a prologue for today. of course my heart tells me to take a step forward...but my brain tells me that it's a step down a cliff. i don't know what's right for this. it's either you gave a wrong idea or i am too desperate.
today
happy valentine's day to all couples and the couples would be.
i will move on...at least physically. say me stuborn or what. i guess i don't even have the stakes to gamble on this table. so why bother?
You Found Me - The Fray
last day of my attachment at chinatown. was almost like slacking throughout the 1st half of the day until the last minute stuff came in. had to rush through the stuff etc. but in the end was quite late for the dinner reserved by my colleagues.
the meal was at far east plaza. nice cosy place. their main speciality is their grilled stuff in sticks...too bad i am lazy to upload the photos here...anyway thanks again for those who accompanied me for the dinner. nice working experience with you guys and all the best. =)
friday
had to go back to school for debrief. had one of the last few lunches in fc6 with my friend. then the debrief. damn boring and long winded. handed up my logbook to my liaison officer. a sign of freedom.
celebrated friend's birthday. had dinner at some vivocity cafe. later we went to sentosa for the musical fountain. followed by a short stroll on the beach (meaning a bunch of us disturbing those couples celebrating an early valentine's day).
that night was actually a prologue for today. of course my heart tells me to take a step forward...but my brain tells me that it's a step down a cliff. i don't know what's right for this. it's either you gave a wrong idea or i am too desperate.
today
happy valentine's day to all couples and the couples would be.
i will move on...at least physically. say me stuborn or what. i guess i don't even have the stakes to gamble on this table. so why bother?
You Found Me - The Fray
2.07.2009
been a while since i last posted...was quite busy with myself and troubled by some issues...thus i got myself into late nights.
went out with some of my friends at friday. but i was late because of mahjong in my company! oh my god. sounds stupid ya? i was so determined to win that i went all the way to the 3rd round before i could only get myself a small win. in the end i left the office at around 7pm when i am supposed to be there with my friends already.
when we had dinner together i suddenly felt that i am more...like being myself perhaps? at least i know i am not hiding myself in 1 corner with the bigger crowd of them. it's scary to see what my friends really are at times i admit. hopefully i can still see them after we graduate...
on the other hand, they somehow seem too enthuastic to ask me join them for this and that...for this i admit maybe i have changed. i am rather tired from handling all these EQ kind of stuff...plus her presence created conflict inside myself again...it's like you really wanna say everything out to her but you saw the future of them...did anybody experience something like this before?
hopefully that bunch who went out with me at friday understand where am i now...but anyway thanks for the friday night.
"it's scary to get close with a friend and yet see his true colours in the end."
went out with some of my friends at friday. but i was late because of mahjong in my company! oh my god. sounds stupid ya? i was so determined to win that i went all the way to the 3rd round before i could only get myself a small win. in the end i left the office at around 7pm when i am supposed to be there with my friends already.
when we had dinner together i suddenly felt that i am more...like being myself perhaps? at least i know i am not hiding myself in 1 corner with the bigger crowd of them. it's scary to see what my friends really are at times i admit. hopefully i can still see them after we graduate...
on the other hand, they somehow seem too enthuastic to ask me join them for this and that...for this i admit maybe i have changed. i am rather tired from handling all these EQ kind of stuff...plus her presence created conflict inside myself again...it's like you really wanna say everything out to her but you saw the future of them...did anybody experience something like this before?
hopefully that bunch who went out with me at friday understand where am i now...but anyway thanks for the friday night.
"it's scary to get close with a friend and yet see his true colours in the end."
2.01.2009
thank god i got PES A for my medical checkup...perhaps i was nervous during the 1st 2 rounds of my ECG...but i tried to confirm with the doctor who assessed me during the 2nd round...and he just said that i am ok now. i got PES A. that's all. thanks arh doc. -.-
napfa was something i wanna forget asap. theoretically i will fail immediately, pack up and go home (because the 1st station i did was the pull ups and once you fail something for napfa you gotta go in drink tekong water 3 weeks earlier than the rest). but somehow the invigilator did something...maybe i got bronze in the end? though it doesn't matter but i thank him. haha. but still the test got my muscles cramped up. -.-
went for my classmates' CNY visits. was in one of the houses when one of the mother said something like come back at next year...when i suddenly smirked inside myself.
was intending to buy something like a cake for yesterday's birthday boy at thursday when i just found out that actually the rest had already bought something for him. and i was told that i have a share of the price. can someone help me describe this feeling? i dare the organiser of this crap get money from me personally. or if anybody who sees this post and find that it doesn't matter or i am too sensitive or even biased towards the organiser- please tell me.
again i am twirling around my options after i have completed my attachment. more or less i have eliminated something...but i don't have the balls to go for 1 option. damn.
either i have turned into some sour grapes or a monk.
suddenly i am interested in the word 'fall'. consider these 2 phrases- "to fall down" and "to fall in love". does it sound ironic to you? or maybe it's because i tend to see it as the glass is half empty
napfa was something i wanna forget asap. theoretically i will fail immediately, pack up and go home (because the 1st station i did was the pull ups and once you fail something for napfa you gotta go in drink tekong water 3 weeks earlier than the rest). but somehow the invigilator did something...maybe i got bronze in the end? though it doesn't matter but i thank him. haha. but still the test got my muscles cramped up. -.-
went for my classmates' CNY visits. was in one of the houses when one of the mother said something like come back at next year...when i suddenly smirked inside myself.
was intending to buy something like a cake for yesterday's birthday boy at thursday when i just found out that actually the rest had already bought something for him. and i was told that i have a share of the price. can someone help me describe this feeling? i dare the organiser of this crap get money from me personally. or if anybody who sees this post and find that it doesn't matter or i am too sensitive or even biased towards the organiser- please tell me.
again i am twirling around my options after i have completed my attachment. more or less i have eliminated something...but i don't have the balls to go for 1 option. damn.
either i have turned into some sour grapes or a monk.
suddenly i am interested in the word 'fall'. consider these 2 phrases- "to fall down" and "to fall in love". does it sound ironic to you? or maybe it's because i tend to see it as the glass is half empty
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