saturday blues anyone?

wanted to go out today but felt kind of lazy to be out alone in town.

bored bored bored.

finally ended my driving course...kind of relieved. but kind of nervous of the changed life back in jurong camp. my instructor asked me to add him in facebook! but sadly i can't find him in the search results...how how how?

had a pretty nice 9km run this morning at west coast park. had to reach the macdonald's at 7am but as usual we had to wait. quite a crowd there as almost the entire battalion was involved. kind of challenging for me as i nowadays would listen to my mp3 player during my sunday runs. not that i didn't bring my player along...but i wouldn't wanna let my arm strap smell just in case i would need it at sunday morning (we had to wear our usual pt singlet to do the run.) alright then i had to listen to my heavy breathing while running...something that i am not used to anymore.

luckily i managed to finish it. but surprisingly i was a bit faster than my normal 7 plus 8km runs. kind of happy for it...with all the comments from my friends saying that i was fast...ya ya.

was talking to ashley about her birthday gift...sighs again i thought of how badly was mine. things are still best when it's earned by your own hands. or maybe this bunch of people are just...

"tell me it's not my imagination."

for those who don't know i finally passed my driving test with the 3 tonner last week...only at the 7th test. so the joy of it is like happy now...next moment i am back to normal.

so i have been driving...experiencing other drivers' driving etc. good and bad. gonna go back to jurong camp soon. good and bad too...with quite a bit of change in management.

can anyone tell what should i choose- between a brain that restricts yourself logically or a heart that runs too wild in the crowds. aiya my mind's in a mess...at times.

another week of mental torture for me. failed for another two times. it's too surprising to be true. especially for the latest one...everything was fine till the point i stopped my vehicle in front of a controlled cross junction which has a area of slope. i was clear of that yes. in the driving centre itself there was no such problem when i moved off from the slope to perform the turn about. and yet. the moment that i rolled back on the public road will be something i will probably never forget.

and there was another moment that's still fresh in my mind till now. had my driving lesson (or rather remedial) from the mandai camp to yishun area for the first time. fine. not much of a problem for me. till that point where my heart stopped. just like that deja vu when i was hanging up before the drop in the G5 cabin back at taiwan.

it was in the yishun neighbourhood. i was driving at the fourth gear along the right lane of a two lane road...gonna make a right turn ahead. i noticed a crowded bus stop on my right. everything seems normal.

the next second a school kid dashed out to the front of my vehicle. yeah my heart stopped. my brain managed to send the last command to my leg to get to the foot brake before it went blank. at the same time my instructor pulled the hand brake. loud screeching noise. clear tyre tracks behind. engine stalled. but was luckily on time to avoid that son of a bitch from tasting my fender.

and yet he continued running across. and there was another car (which i barely noticed in amidst of all these) on my left which my instructor was worried for- should the driver not notice in time, that kid might have flew into the air for the last time. luckily for the kid again.

i took around 3 seconds to bring myself back to start the engine. no response from it for a few times. the crowd at the bus stop were looking. fine. at least they didn't see my legs getting jelly.

went out to orchard to meet darren up (surprisingly i still had the mood.) man saw this black leather jacket from river island with nice gold zips which are not properly aligned. $199. i would still have to pay $150 even with that pathetic $50 capitamall voucher.

too bad then. later saw the red jacket i was very interested in at vivocity zara. $49.90- but with no sizes i can properly fit in. another barren trip.

maybe things spiced up a bit when kim suddenly appeared in zara. ah so weijun wanted to pass her her birthday gift. later on the way back home weijun claimed that he's over with her...maybe i am too sensitive or the typical mando-pop songs are always about fallouts or breakups...but his selection of songs seem to speak otherwise. but the main part is that there was a guy following her after we parted (which i never noticed till darren told me.) oh god. tall. skinny. wears a ralph lauren polo. plays with his iphone quietly at a corner while we chatted for a bit. in zara men some more. darren said he's wooing her. but to me it sounds more like stalking her. but she's going to club afterwards. so...as compared to her rather chic outfit...ralph lauren polo, jeans and sneakers for club? maybe some people likes to have those...you know those sure get deals or something.

immediately i teased weijun about the cost of his outfit. darren said he's from the working class. which i realised...maybe most people would only consider going out with people of the similar social class. we are still poor kids after all. that's why i guess i am right...career is ultimately more important.

went to carnivore@vivocity for the second time- within a month. god it's $45++ per pax and their drinks are mainly priced at $8...and for both of the occasions i was giving treats- once for my mum's birthday and this time as a group giving treat to weijun's 22nd birthday. so hope that you can understand my pain in the pockets.

as for those who know i shouldn't have beef in the presence of my parents, the first trip was kind of wasted for me. maybe i am back to redeem for my "sins"...wahaha.

to all peeps, especially meat lovers, trust me. carnivore is a must go. the way they get the meats done is certainly the best i ever tried. i personally recommend the fish and lamb as a must try. service is great too. the dollars spent were worth the brazilian experience. well my weight shedding plans...at least was forgone for that buffet dinner.

so had lots of fun...lots of meat...and i certainly don't understand why i was more lively and cracked a lot of jokes. then we moved off to the chevrons for karaoke. more people joined- with a simple birthday cake to celebrate with.

ps: jun cheng wanna watch the expendables? haha.

any idiot who witnessed me failing the driving test for the fourth time would have thought that i am worse than themselves (even though there are still some peeps who hasn't drove out of the camp during tests.) i am really exhausted. mentally. not really about the lessons to make up for the next test but...the feeling of my friends who passed and left the camp for orientation in other vehicles...it really felt bad...in the quiet bunk...left with only a few more guys (whom some didn't really mind, surprisingly.)...and i am stuck in there because i am stuck with some mistakes only on the right turns. some more it's the same for all the previous three attempts. three times in row a leh!

went to the cathay to watch the last airbender with my camp mates. it's quite nicely done, with neat animations and stuff. just that the story's pace is kind of fast...even with the sequel to be expected (which i only realised towards the end of the movie.)

decided to go somewhere chill a bit with desserts before going home. but we got ourselves finding our dear friend's car through the floors of parking lots. god damn it i was kind impatient and pissed at some point of time. how can you as a driver forget where you parked? oh gosh.

finally found the car and moved to some dessert shop...before i got dropped off back at dhoby ghaut.

damn. was too tired to jog this morning.

this week is like a week of lows...and bland days.

flunked twice in the final driving test for the 3 tonner. morale down.

the rain killed my plans to jog in the morning. better still.

wanted to go out but...with the failed tests, i don't really have any mood left to do so. or perhaps it's because i am especially tired this weekend.

during the week i witnessed somebody from saying she's been crying for two days because of her boy lying (anyway the situation sounds stupid in my opinion) and wanna die to commenting that she's the happiest woman now. i couldn't just tell her to break up with him (even though it was a good chance to do so and it is still my stand) and yet i couldn't find anything to console her. well that's their domestic affair after all.

what else can i do during weekends besides waiting to book in again?