first of week of driving@kaki bukit.

the bunk at sembawang is still ok...only the neighbours and the regulars (specifically BOS duty personnels) that make the life either concerned and irritated at times. food is worse now too.

but besides that...it's quite hectic for this week. guess it's just the starters. highway code practiced (and practiced) and memorised, tested and passed within 5 days. and to think that they say it's harder than the basic/advanced theory test out there...thankfully i passed.

had a first try of the driving simulator at wednesday. damn cool! imagine the thing as a bigger sized simulator cabins that you see in arcades that comes with motion (and some more it's made by lockheed martin). wah. it's fun and quite realistic too.

next comes the actual driving. the instructor is kind with me and i guess i am slowly get the gist of manual cars...but of course the clutch is always a pain in the ass job. the rover jerks when i released the clutch too early.

i've got crazy bunk mates who are so nuts for world cup (the betting side.) 1 guy betted $2k (yes $2000.00) on a match- and lost.

guess jun cheng reminded me yesterday..."what's yours will be yours."

the odds are never that clear in my head. stable relationship. conservative mindset. aiya i am maybe trying to be a sore loser- i myself am not even earning from a proper job. and still wanna compete against some older guy nearing his thirties (soon i guess haha.) and having a stable job...who can attend to her anytime he wants (argh...life of a civilian...)

you get the idea? a guy in his late twenties...obviously wants a stable and lasting relationship. and normally they don't just any how pick a girl from the streets...they want to settle down sooner or later...and thing is she doesn't look like a player in this field...man.

but as long as my heart beats arh...the other side of me is telling me to fight...because i think she's worth a fight (at least for now...till i get to know her better...but god knows when will that be and what has happened by then...you know?)

why? she's still single mah. not that i will break them up (i am not that smart either for this kind of stuff) but just that i will be there once there's any chance. any chance.

moreover ever since after jo's case and sheryl (saw her yesterday at jurong point)...i don't wanna miss a chance if i am sure of it. no doubt i might bleed dry but...if i never try nothing will change. all that went through my head will either come true or demolished.

alright i know this is bad for a conclusion but...the worse thing is what if she's just plainly looking at me as a potential client? it's quite plain for me to see le lah...suddenly she contacts you...along the way leaks that now prudential is now pushing on saving plans/insurance and telling you that next time she can intro me to the plans and help her promote before she leaves...a long fish line bait for a big fish?

BUT THAT'S WHAT I HATE TO SEE! i don't wanna meet her as a potential client. and that's something i can change within a short time...especially after a long while of being a lost contact (i don't think she has a facebook account and it's been ages since she last went to msn.)

i let go of jo that easily. i regretted. i was too foolish for sheryl at that point of time. i regretted. how many more times am i gonna do that again?

i always believe destiny is a mixture of fate and human effort. maybe you might think that i am falling into the category of guys who won't feel shiok if the girl they are getting is not with challenges- but no. i just don't wanna miss another her.

my friend said about counting the number of lines on the side of your clenched fist- i got around three. fine with me. i don't have the habit of having flings and play around. or rather it's a standard excuse of someone who doesn't have the criteria of doing so. that's why i'll have to fight.

war is like men's favourite hobby isn't it? haha.

feel really glad that i managed to get out for lunch with jun cheng (really ps that i didn't bring the souvenir from taiwan for you leh...it's been so long le...)

had nice ramen for lunch at clarke quay central. luckily jun cheng felt it's not bad for his first try. i am just getting back to taste something i missed. his treat.

wanted to watch the movie a team at vivocity after that but there weren't much good timings nor seats (selling fast and it's a last minute decision.) man with toy story, a team and ip man coming up and unwatched...arh!!!

went to giant to get something before deciding to get back to jun cheng's house as he wanted to get something for me. wah. he got me a brown braun buffel leather wallet! picked by him- simple design, size comes good for my pocket and it comes with a coin compartment! lol (because my current one comes without a proper coin compartment.)

thanks leh bro. it's the most decent gift i got this year. you know what i mean.

went to play lan games for a while before going back home. damn it jun cheng's naruto is imba...lol.

just finished packing for tomorrow. still have dishes to wash later. feel quite dreaded to go driving though i am quite looking forward to learn driving someday...but the idea of you being scolded (and i actually mean vulgarities) by the instructor from the moment you board the vehicle till you alight might haunt me for a while later in the night.

thank you jun cheng again for the part from the msn chat. i should follow my instincts...and my feelings too. since it was what i felt that led me on when she said "yay i finally bought something!"

there's no second you. there's no second chance.

yesterday was...

went jogging at morning. was kind of late after chatting a bit of soccer with my father at 6am plus. but never mind.

went out with my mum and sis to the ica building to collect mum's passport. frankly speaking the whole thing ended very quickly. i didn't expect like twenty plus thirty people to be cleared that fast.

went to bugis to walk a bit before i leave them for ion orchard to meet her. shit i was late by a few minutes (first impression mah...) but she said a few minutes was fine. man supplementary idea one.

didn't really planned out where to eat the day before so we spent quite a while thinking of where to eat. in the end she suggested of a cozy japanese restaurant (forgot the name) that sells mainly on katsu don.

almost embarrassed myself when i was told that they don't accept nets. luckily my debit card saved me from the blushes. phew.

so we casually chatted over the meal for like...30 minutes? along the way more supplementray ideas.

she said that i am different.

then we went on a short shopping trip (which i didn't expect for...but also something i will never forget...at least for now.)

we went to far east. she claims to be a lazy person when it comes to dressing so she wants to focus on one piece dresses. truthfully i have to thank her for bringing me into those lady shops...for my sis nor my mum will ever want to enter (price sensitive consumers.) to it's quite an eye opener to be inside- i didn't know that the shops for females in far east are that good.

we went to quite a few shops and really saw quite a few nice dresses. i encouraged her to go try those she liked (her style is more of low profile and sweetie kind) and wah.

she said i am a good shopping buddy. maybe because i gave suggestions on how to dress up and accessorize (again she's lazy to accessorize.) she felt that i know a lot on these and she even asked me whether i am straight or not -.- oh gosh. lol.

but a thought struck me- i am just dressing her up for her boy. i knew it. i knew it at least a year ago. on that faithful IT show. and yet. she left me with the biggest impact yesterday. i know her intention wasn't just purely catching up. still...

mature. cheerful. thoughts on the same lines. bitter sweet.

she had an appointment to catch at 3 plus. and she left...and left me rooted for a while.

suddenly i felt like i am on a shopping spree. to distress? maybe. bought another pair of shoes and almost bought a 2 in 1 piece and a tee. rotted around before i went to chun leng's 21st chalet.

i am sorry chun leng...for i really had no mood to stay over night. and on kwan yong's 'secret' that he shared with me yesterday night...just like what tong jin said..."all of this is a joke."

hey isn't that the same as mine? all of this is just a like a joke. just like life.

initially i was alone in orchard yesterday morning. actually saw quite a bit of stuff that tempted me to buy- new look jacket, zara dress shoes, the idea book and some tops. but perhaps i was feeling damn sian, quite high prices and unwell so i didn't make the purchases.

in the afternoon darren and weijun came. we shopped a bit more (i bought a new look top- the only thing bought.) before we went over to the marina sands for a walk. they treated me to hokkaido@turf city for a dinner buffet before we went home. well i guess their intention wasn't to buy stuff but just treat me to a meal. so ok loh.

reached home to only find out that my father was displeased with me buying so many things (in a sense i have already bought quite a bit at taiwan.) but i realised i still got the appetite for local stuff. bad idea....

but on the overall this weekend doesn't feel like a birthday weekend. it only feels like a weekend of hectic, frustrating and sick weekend.

to my father, today is about getting up early and wanting me to pray according to his method before he goes to work. and look out for any 'abnormal signs' (it's just a bee.) and to get the water in the fish tank replaced asap.

well but thanks to facebook's birthday reminders i got a few post ups on my wall. thanks mark zuckerberg.

happy...birthday.

seems like it's gonna be the worst of all till now. intended to hold a small drink out session tomorrow but...

kwan yong held this event to celebrate everything- xiao hui and jasmine's birthday, first year graduation anniversary and for chun boon and me back from taiwan. not mine. it's at sunday because xiao hui can't make it at saturday. and both kwan yong and myself felt it's weird to meet up on both days...so i just cancelled mine. sounds stupid...maybe. then kwan yong tried to put it at saturday instead with his plans together. come on lah if you wanna celebrate do a proper one leh...use loads of excuses and combine here and there to let your vip xiao hui come (even when she has boyfriend le). i've enough of you le.

weijun suggested treating me to hokkaido tomorrow. and i bet he hasn't even done anything. asked where he intending to ask and his reply was to let me do the planning.

and they have been asking me what i want. it's all here lah. and all these only reflects on who's been here reading. but ironically that's what i wanted initially. so too bad. or rather...you cherish most the things you got by yourself.

ah forget it lah! screw it.

i'll just go on my own tomorrow bah. first to the movie lobby, then maybe a walk down to orchard then to IT show bah. case closed.

going for driving course the week after next. no more slacking. more shit to expect.

container's back. hell's back.

alright i got back here like...at 31st may 4.30am? was quite tired the past few days (resting, went out, catching up) and thus got lazy to blog...lots of stuff to say.

the trip to taiwan...well the first part (i can't say much though) i should say i am lucky to not go out and just help out with the container, wooden crates (many and heavy) and the equipment. i salute to those who were stuck in the area for four whole days doing nothing under the bloody hot sun before pushing out.

blink blink and the first event was over. i guess we were quite efficient with the packing up (yeah leave the hell of unpacking back at singapore) and thus we were left with around two days plus. on the first night there was the happy hour thing where we got to eat and drink (taiwanese beer!) to kind of celebrate.

the second night was nights out for us. i felt it was not worthy and didn't go (hundred plus near two for transportation and you only have at most 3 hours of movement within a small town that we have no info of where to go.)

the third day was a trip one of the amusement parks. initially i didn't want to go (i was determined to save up for the R&R @ kaoshiung and the entrance fee itself is already NT450...SGD20 plus) but my friend upon seeing that i seem to missing out all the fun decided to help me pay the transportation fee without my permission while i was away. at first i felt that i was in a dilemma- i have no intention to go yet i have to pay for it as it was already fixed before i knew it. so too bad loh.

so the next day we reached the park- and guess what? the first ride was their main attraction of the park- the G5.

my friends all started to get all excited and want to have that ride first. oh my god...i shouldn't be here and now i am still pulled along by them to take this ride; just like what i mentioned after the ride, "i haven't taken a roller coaster for ten plus years and now i took this!"

maybe when you are with your ns friends your ego will fan your guts to bet bigger. so alright i took it.

seated on the second row of the two row open cabin, i was still not feeling anything- until it starting moving.

a short straight before the climb over (p.s. the ride is built on a hill slope so we were already on some height) and soon enough it halts right in front of the drop point.

i remember i was shouting while my grip on the bar got tightened. oh wait...it started dropping!

that moment was still in my head- my body was in a near L shape, eyes looking down the height we were gonna dive through within two seconds or so. yeah i was still shouting; only till the drop. so there it goes: down a vertical track on very high speeds for about two seconds before it climbs up and back to the starting point. a short ride to hell and out.

my legs...i admit they were a bit jelly after the ride. but from then i was already sure that the trip was worth it. other rides were still ok- except one that goes swinging 360 degrees. again i went up unknowingly- to almost get a good whoop from it. the starting was fine till the g force started to get stronger and stronger. man i was about to puke. luckily the ride finished shortly after that and i got to recover- too bad for the lady beside my friend though; she started puking shortly before the ride ended. lucky that we didn't get a share of her processed breakfast too.

next day was finally our R&R. was already a bit sian because of the fact that we moved out to kaoshiung on the morning itself, not the night before or whatsoever. never mind. we reached the hotel at around 12 plus to find out that the hotel rooms are not done yet. damn it in the end we can only walk around the streets, have lunch and gather back at 3.30pm to check in.

on the overall the trip was still ok...the mrt station was surprisingly near to us...and the whole of it is in underground. we even got to notice a pretty girl for almost every mrt trip. haha. kaoshiung is not really a place for a feast of eyes but it's still better than nothing.

shopped some shopping districts and the night market. man the stuff they sell are of quality (in terms of fabric and design). price wise is still competitive or even lower than that of singapore's. no wonder i felt like puking when i walked around orchard yesterday. food wise- no need to say. their famous chicken cutlets, papaya milk shake and so many more...man i was informed that i still missed out their buffets and steaks.

so in the end besides the souvenirs i got, i bought for myself 3 tees, 1 formal shorts and 1 vest. the vest is really a buy- it's only about SGD20-30. but the disappointing part was that their tops didn't fascinate me (and that was what i wanted to go for). another thing was that i couldn't find nice dress shoes. lastly i feel kind of wasted not to buy that braun buffel leather wallet which costs just SGD98 when you can only get it at here for like...at least SGD120 perhaps?

oh ya a note about the hotel we stayed in. it's just like a blardy hotel for whores! i remember the auntie who asked us whether we need massage or not just after we went in to the room. we both looked at her and she still replied "of course it's not me who do the massage lah!" oh man. haha. the counter at our floor even has durex condoms too.

and my friend even purposely found the channel 15 which even broadcasts *clears my throat* from the hotel's own hard disk drive all day long.

so the short trip ended with us touching down on changi airport (my ears hurt all the way from KL to singapore). back to the boring life we used to have.

now the taiwan craze is spreading. everybody wants to get to taiwan. i also do feel that i didn't have enough fun and purchases back then. haha. but as to who i will go...must see the crowd first.

yesterday i suddenly received a call from xue wei. she sounds like she's having a good time in prudential and she wants to meet me up for a meal and catchup. hm...

what should i tell kwan yong & co to buy for my birthday? should i just let them buy anything and let it dust in my house? or just get anything i want? but what? shades? wallet? dress shoes? sighs. getting something proper for yourself can be hard at times too.