finally found one classic blazer from river island:

how's it? too bad but i found it only in a website...nothing similar sold in singapore (or river island) bah...at least from what i know now. maybe i'll get it for myself next year or even end of year?

another cool watch from diesel. but it's like what...$245 at tangs? -.- god i sure know how to pick expensive stuff.

guess the only way to get them is to kick start. a potential turn for me. we need a bold first step, mate.

getting curious on the kinds of clubs and societies in SIM.

or else...it's still day dreaming...everyday.

is it wrong to say "the time is now?"

it's tiring. very tiring to seemingly move on with things pulling you from behind.

i really don't understand what's left in my family. maybe my sister. my father is a learning example for me (bad traits wise.) and my mother? doesn't know how to get her own life and just clinging on me and pestering me.

yesterday i almost got myself quarrelling with her. with her usual short sighted self she asked "so you are not willing to go with me?" (sunday trip to malaysia)

i already said fine. but solely because she's not feeling well. "i don't know how to explain everything to you."

how am i supposed to tell her to stop pestering me every time she has to do something on her own? or to tell her almost everybody in the family is dependent on me for matters big and small- and yet i can't depend on them when i need help? or to ask her how much does she understand me to help me at all?

is this what family life supposed to be? is this how my life is gonna be? i am sure this is not what i want but what can i do?

perhaps i am the only one in and out of this blogspot and i need attention now- but my initial objective is to let it be low profile so that people will not be easily react to whatever i say. ironic huh?

i am really getting sick of everything- life stays the same when you are pushed to the limits everyday.