happy new year people.

hopefully 2011 is a year of hope and changes. be it a game changer or just the way i eat my toast everyday, just let it be something nicer.

do you sometimes feel like messaging someone during this time and yet you are hesitating?

sometimes it's just hard to get the work attitude working on a friend.

"we are meant to be unique. but our beliefs must lie along the same lines."

merry christmas.

back from hat yai (google map the name if you are asking where is it.)

bought quite a bit of stuff...but also saw a kind of attitude and lifestyle they have for everyday.

so there was this trip to a monk who does fortune telling and is highly sought after tourists.

(in hokkien)

monk : "got girlfriend?"

"no."

monk : "wah sad arh! must wait arh."

-.-

so sometimes you can't blame me if i were to wander off and think of people.

猫眼啊猫眼.

he who wonders

- when will all the slogging in camp will end (10 years cycle excluded)

- whether he will be able to start lessons next year

- whether he can start doing some work now

- about his career path

- what will happen in 5 year's time

- when will things get the traction he wants

- why does it seem like he's a noob and lagging behind

- how does he say what he wishes to say

- whether he will eventually turn solitary

- when can he put his heart and soul to someone else

- whether he's sitting in a bubble now

yesterday and today seems to be like sleeping days for me. kept sleeping...day and night. gosh and missed a morning run some more. lazy bones shaking up again i guess. hopefully tomorrow's game at the cage@kallang will help compensate. bit excited about this too.

sent an email days back to have a private consultation with my poly lecturer. so far no reply yet. guess he's on vacation. hopefully the session is really fruitful...and strengthen my belief.

being rather occupied with issues...issues regarding solutions. how can i talk so much about the solution that i've been missing out on how to facilitate the process of the solution? oh my.

and the issue on directions. i am kind of concerned with the directions that we are taking. it might turn out to be something we might spend some time discussing or worse still arguing over.

and the upcoming vacation at hat yai. maybe it still feels...an ok loh for me. maybe i just can't imagine myself buying things at there.

i wonder whether i can ever set a date to ask some of the bunk guys out for a one day trip to johor or something. and the steamboat thing.

and the x'mas party. important event. i hope. i need a clash of ideas man...someone who can challenge me and of course help refine the idea.

now to think of it...so many things!

points from the book i've been reading (Conceptual Blockbusting- A Guide to Better Ideas) :

stereotyping is bad for creativity. it brings in your related ideas, experience, and experience indirectly brings in your feelings about something.

problem solving is similar to bringing order to chaos. right you must have a desire for order but the ability to tolerate chaos is a must too.

real problem solvers respect and are more receptive to ideas, even if they are flawed. criticizing ideas is in fact a cheap way of demonstrating your mental superiority.

a new idea is normally a threat to the status quo; thus the fear of risk or failure is natural.

some day...i will let it rest...some where...for good.

is there something wrong going on in me?

i need to talk.

still a ok week. only got a bit busy towards the end of the week.

(goal for fc barcelona!!! showed to the world that the school beats the bank! it will be something i will never forget.)

but still...some drama went tearing down a pair's friendship. and worsened most of our impressions of him. skip the details but the main idea revolves around swooping of guard duties, agreement, trust, money...and more money.

though i am doing little of such stuff as compared to my bunk mates (because of my appointment...but still doesn't sound like it since i am the only appointment holder doing guard duties) but i've decided to just do mine no matter what. these duties are always planned and displayed at the start of the month. so what's so hard appearing for the duty on the day itself?

a female officer will be attached to our company for the next three months (with this month effectively gone with all the blocked leave -.-) heard she's studying in perth for degree in economics. kind of unused to the situation huh.

time for university application again. if i were to ever apply for rmit degree (my more preferred private business degree) it will cost me $35k leh. sighs. if this problem doesn't exist now...hopefully i still can manage to squeeze into smu. but there...of course other problems will surface.

"i heard them ringing and processioning by."