yesterday was like hell of a roller coaster ride. hm even now i am a little confused on where should i start...

sms-ed botak (actually he deserves to have his real name here-weijun) when he was on his way back to tekong...suddenly the thought of what happened between my friend, a girl and i flashed. so i had the feeling of clearing up before i dive in too deep to settle such issues.

i wouldn't blame him for his unclear answer but i was right in asking him first about this.

so after that i asked my friend (darren) about something similar. so some of the facts are confirmed and those were the stuff that set me on a dip. so basically there were issues of potential competition, the fact that she treats everybody the same (or should i say nicely) and most importantly where should i stand now.

but personally i have to thank ashley, jun cheng and darren for their help. somehow you guys' advice were able to string up nicely.

hm...so what i summed up was:

- she treats everybody the same
- i should think of what she says/does as what she would do as a friend, nothing else
- it's a simple question; so it's between want or not

with these points i think i actually took a step back. then i realised i don't have an answer for the third point. and so...why should i be bothered with the rest of the people?

jun cheng's point was more explicit in this sense (i had my msn nick as "lines i couldn't change" and even with that he can elaborate using lines -.-). it's only about the line between two points. two person.

so therefore i concluded that my mind was wandering too far out, too reactive on this and thought that it was easy.

what am i gonna do next? i shall deal it with my own pace, with more rationality i hope. case closed.