maybe it's really a rush of blood to the head. such things never come easily. and the worse you are, the lesser it is. perhaps i should really believe in this. all right this is derived from my negative side but isn't that a fact?

i've always said to myself that i should let that die off...and yet i chose to defy what i should have done. enough said. i shall not leave any debris for that cliq and case closed. i shouldn't be dragging the cliq down just because of my selfish and impatient acts.

i am sorry jun cheng but sometimes...never does happen.

let the job...two years of ns come into me. although i will never be prepared for these but...place me in that situation and i will get pass it.

changes will come. just that if the end product is like a frankenstein...don't be too surprised.