i just feel like venting everything out here before i can really sleep.

just got back from outing. kind of crowd at there. left the bunch of guys after they decided to go sisha.

mood was kind of low for the day. darren told me quite a bit of stuff which i wouldn't bother elaborating here. but it's just some...bad facts about me. i do admit that when i talk about things i tend to get serious and is always (and seriously) lacking a sense of humour. i am really sorry to those who thought they are talking to a retard all these while.

true that i do want to change...but why is everybody looking for finished products? are they finished too? i wouldn't really mind if i were to find out that somebody is flawed during a relationship (of any kind, of course). aren't relationships supposed to help each other become a better self?

so after the club's annual general meeting in the school i didn't bother to talk much. are things supposed to work this way?

after that i waited for a bloody 30 minutes plus for a crowded night rider bus service.

either way i will have to choose between two possible sides of outing like...twelve hours later? i don't know whether i should go and turn her off or to go join a clique which i will be more quiet throughout the meal.