been lazy to post something for the past weeks...partly being lazy and moreover there's nothing much interesting for me to write on.

the weekdays in the camp got us very busy- helping the rest with all the moving of crates to pack up for shipment. more to come next week.

good news- i am going to taiwan! and the R&R (Relax & Recreational) is free and easy!

bad news- the R&R is only 2 days 1 night. and it's only at kaohsiung...man. a bit demoralised by this.

up till now some of my platoon guys have been assigned to various detachments for the exercise...not me though. *crosses fingers*

went out with darren just now to various places. weijun was supposed to come along but thanks to his over night mahjong session yesterday night he overslept and never got out.

went to smu first to hand up my application documents. then to kinokuniya to get a book of star wars for some kid. my mother sounds kind of reluctant when i finally found a suitable book that the kid will like but with the price of 40 plus dollars. and i felt very tempted to buy another book on innovation...since i have finished my googled. then window shopped (bought a pair of bermudas) around before settling down for dinner at serizaya@ liang court (as usual the nice food...only at 17 dollars!).

so many stuff to buy! endure...must endure till the taiwan trip...or maybe i can get more next friday when i go to malaysia to shop?

just to share with this upcoming adobe photoshop cs5...damn it's really good with its content aware feature. watch it to find out:

well this week...i guess i experienced quite a change of culture when the guys from the trunk comm company finally take us over.

some old birds say this batch of officers and sergeants tend to be more lax on 'dogs' like us...which we didn't believe them at first. and suddenly i felt more like i have already gone through uip...almost anything is possible now...like getting stuff from vending machines, locker layout (in terms of item quantity) for stand by bed not as strict as before, able to bring in mp3 players etc (we even got macdonald delivery at thursday night).

now i am starting to like uip. while the transferred guys over at command comm company might feel even better with their routines, we do not have much to complain about too. now how i wish that this could drag (quite possibly true as people are all busy with exercises) as long as possible...

oh ya. 1 thing is that it seems certain that i will go taiwan at may (unless unforeseen circumstances occur). second is that after the trip we might be posted to driving camp for training...sounds good to me.

anyway there's this guy whom we teased him throughout the week as his admirer (for 3 years leh) flew to australia for studies. as he couldn't send her off personally (he was in camp), he also couldn't gather his courage to confess to her throughout these 3 years. i was also in the 'fun'...poking at him whenever possible. but i felt a little bad as what he is experiencing is just like mine (yes, nicole?).

but on the other hand i was thinking- wouldn't one get more confident to confess should he spend more time to know her and make sure that she's really his cup of tea? or maybe i am too much of a noob ass to make a statement like this.

as there's more time to sit around and rest, i walked into my thoughts again. then i felt that maybe many things could have changed should sheryl be in a different pair of arms...we knew it could be positive for us at some point of time...and it's not like a day or two kind of feeling ( i spent quite a bit of time at poly year 1 to know her better...until she chose another guy -.-). jo might not walked into my eyes...and we could have lasted till now.

i guess i have to pour this out here...as this is one of my regrets till now (3 in total and counting).

i remember we (ashley, lucinda and me) talked about when will we plan to marry in the future at ashley's house. without thinking much i replied 30 plus. while they felt it's kind of late (i naively thought of it as 27-28 previously), i thought with my social circle (guys and more guys) now and my age when i start working (at least 24- true young enough but i will focus on paying back my loan and my career/entrepreneurship first. so money and time all tied up.)...and of course with the fact that i am another noob in the field...well.

i said, "bread first then love mah." at that night. sounds like a hardcore right winger? nah. humans are impressions-based creatures. i don't have something that allows me to do the reverse.

speaking of which i felt disgusted of the stomp series on what attracts guys/girls on the opposite gender. the guys interviewed mainly agreed that the figures of a woman will attract them first. how true. how ugly.

i simply reviewed on myself...i guess partly due to my family background (in which we don't really share with each other how we feel as openly), i feel i need more like a soul mate whom i can confide in...somebody who is more intellectual, independent and has the charm to knock me down and of course caring and understanding. superficial factors wise...perhaps a killer smile too? have a build and height similar to mine? ya that's about all. bonuses wise...then maybe killer legs. oh ya similar fashion sense (or something close to metropolitan).

yeah i said "aiya it's my self esteem that's killing me." i am just being arrogant and be more rational to blind my heart.

some pictures i found over the net. beware apple fans.

oh ya...should i apply for public universities again? because my mind was set on taking private degrees...and now upon closer look, the degrees provided by kaplan...well the partner universities are relatively unknown as compared to those from sim...how how how?

oh ya before i start busying back to the dog camp...

farewell my dear friend ashley!

it feels too soon for you to go back. but oh well...

either way, have a smooth trip back and i hope while you start leading a more care-free life without the burden of your society commitments, you must also work on hard on your studies leh...

all the best.

i would say it's quite a weird timing for me to post something here now. supposed to be at outside but was called off at the last minute. so i guess it's gonna be a stagnant weekend at home before i go back to hell. or maybe i should just find something else to do besides rotting outside.

went to jurong camp at wednesday morning for report. had no idea at all of what was gonna happen to me. everything gets worse. out of proportion standardisation, regimentation and so many crap are gonna to be thrown at my face during our unit induction programme (uip). basically due to the culture of the camp, imagine the months ahead of me to be a tekan session.

first day of uip- setting up of our bunk. we had to do everything ourselves- moving cupboards, bed frames and cleaning the room within a short time. well since it's meant to be a tekan session we got ourselves awarded with 50 push ups and 100 crunches just for stand by area. needless for me to say the stuff for the rest of the day i guess.

standardisation...yes. everything must be consistent for us- from the quantity of of our hangers hanging in our cupboards to the brand of our toothpastes in our field pack. logical? for those who are thinking at this point of time, i guess you need more cow sense.

three days were enough for us. i wonder how am i gonna take it just for the week ahead. the feeling to down my pes status is so strong in my mind. but on the other hand it will also mean i will part with my friends who came along with me from stagmont camp. what complexity.

so after getting out from the camp yesterday i got to home dry despite the heavy rain (a big thanks to wei keong's parents who offered me the trip back home). got back, unpacked my stuff and went over to ashley's house for dinner. lucinda (my secondary classmate) came shortly and we had a fair bit of chat over at the dining table.

then we moved up to her room to continue till around...1.30am? well time really flies and she's gonna go back at monday night. at the best to you ashley...tahan a bit more and you will be graduating with a degree cert leh...while i am still wasting my time off in our 'decisive' force.

slept at 2am. and was able to wake up at 7am...surprisingly. kind of pushed myself to go jogging as planned. and now here i am staying at home doing nothing much...sighs. everything's stuck.

didn't really feel like posting...because soon i will rest, wake up and report to jurong camp. maybe it should spell like hell too.

supposedly to go malaysia with my parents to visit my relatives yesterday...in the end we decided to play safe due to the fact that nobody from the camps are informed. so i was home alone for a day or so.

should say it's dumb for me not to inform the rest that my house is empty for last night. so after paying a visit to ashley's house i rushed off to town for a last minute arrangement with darren and weijun for movie. well thanks to my last minute we can't really get tickets with suitable time slots for 14 blades nor little big soldier (there was a slot for little big soldier but the only available seats left were 2 rows away from the screen -.-)

so in the end we went to ashton @ cathay for late dinner. darren and i talked mainly on the business and stuff (sadly what darren said about the local IT industry is true) while weijun mainly shared his experience when he was at taiwan.

when we finished our dinner i suddenly had the urge to go to the sofa seats at the cathay movie lobby. the building beside cathay (think it's an art school) is so tall now...and i kept staring at smu- one of the dreams i thought i can achieve 3 years back while seated at the same spot.

well at that point of time nobody told me i can lose 2 dreams at once. but the aftertaste has long gone away from my throat.

maybe all these that i've brought upon myself is gonna spur me to just focus on my career.

maybe i should say thanks to hello kitty and ah meng.

p.s.- get well soon for ashley's dad.

2 months flew just like that...time in the signal institute is especially fast. so now i will have to move on to my new unit (even though i know i will miss some of my bunk mates- especially edmund foo aka werewolf/slut. haha.)

good news- i didn't report to the camp at friday (we got posted out at thursday)...so we will go there at wednesday morning. oh ya and some how i received the best detachment award. -.-

bad news- i got posted to 3rd battalion! man...god knows what will happen to me at there...

so today i went to watch true legend with weijun and yonghui...was almost late for the show thanks to me...haha. anyway the movie...if i am lenient i should say it's still ok bah...but i would prefer to re-watch ip man again.

got back home a while before i set off to clementi to meet jun cheng up for dinner. usual stuff to chat about...getting more and more confident bah i would say...as ideas are starting to solidify.

damn the distributor company for my newsweek subscription. nothing has been done till now on my additional subscription to forbes asia. don't force me to complain to case.

well quite a number of things happened last sunday. you got a poly classmate whose birthday is around now and yet she 'purposely' places her party celebration at 13th feb and wishes us to go...as usual the problems between chun boon and qin yi and us can't taking it further...kwan yong and derrick's birthday gift/braun buffel wallets (which quite turns me off on what i can expect from them for my birthday, judging from what was bought.)

then this week is kind of unlucky for my entire platoon. got punishments here and there- nights out turned into stand by bed...defaulters parade yesterday after quite a long while of detachment exercise (but somehow we managed to escape and got it scheduled at next friday instead...better than nothing la huh).

next week wise it's gonna be quite tough. monday till end of tuesday is our summary exercise...kind of nervous after seeing how badly we did on the overall to get our link up. straight after that are radio tests for theory and practical and then the 16km route march at wednesday. so thursday we will finally attend the pass out ceremony to get our vocation badge...

which makes me feel confused...for the last week we shall spend in signal institute (the week after next)- the lesson schedule are all computer lab lessons. if that's so why make the exercises, tests and route march so packed up?

oh well. no matter what we can only suck it up and follow.

gonna go for kwan yong's 21st birthday @kallng leisure park kbox later (of course after going to other places to shop first haha). just got message from that the ice skating will be cancelled and stuff...sighs. on one hand perhaps the number of people going is really low...but maybe he still hasn't got over xiao hui too. i understand.

was talking to ashley at last sunday in camp. suddenly she talked about going to taiwan together with her cliq towards the end of the year...sounds good...but i also realised something...well. it's either by then i can break the barrier or the trip turns bad for me or i will choose not to go. sorry ashley if i were to do the later...

i only told others that it's ironic that you can see clearer the person you admire when he/she is with somebody else. but this time...somehow i felt that i shouldn't have done that. or i guess i was too late.

boring week (but lap top is finally back!). tests...SI evening (which turned out to be very disappointing- be it our cheer performance or the stuff from musical and drama company) and of course lessons and more lessons. and next week will be even tougher- setting up drills and exercise at friday...oh no. just thinking of it makes me feel down.

thanks to my sergeant i managed to escape from the camp at 7pm as he likes to make us pissed off during area inspection. i certainly hope jun cheng didn't wait too long for me at clementi.

reached there and had a kfc meal (where my sense of rubbish was suddenly revived...perhaps it's too long since i last met him...but it doesn't make sense, right? haha.) while we chatted quite a bit. but it was mainly on our 'big plan'...haha. while i don't really have much confidence whether this plan will work or not...but i am quite sure the concept is new...and should i research more and develop it on i am quite confident it can be quite a big hit.

went across the causeway yesterday. reached there at around 11 plus and my mother and i started to shop around in city square. chanced upon a nice pair of 'fred perry' shoes @109rm. tempted but i wanted to look around for more options (which in the end that's the only shop that sells it). we dragged the timing for lunch; since i don't really feel hunger when i shop. and guess what? when we finally wanna settle down at kenny roger's, the waiter said they will be closed at 1pm. my mother went around asking...damn it. the whole damn mall is closing down at 1pm due to the passing away of their dear sultan. so both of us hurriedly down to the new year cookies/pastries stalls @ 1st floor and got some stuff.

so in the end it totally spoil my mood for the whole day. god damn it.

(thanks jun cheng for offering to buy that pair of shoes for me but i have not even tried on it yet...and i feel better if i were to really confirm on buying on the spot.)

going out later to get kwan yong's 21st birthday gift @ marina square. while i have already missed out some movies (i do not have to be sad though...haha.), i certainly don't wanna miss another- daybreakers. hopefully i can watch it next weekend. but first thing first. i first pray that it doesn't drag later. for those who know the pattern of my poly classmates...you all get what i mean.

if you guys feel that the time i posted is weird...yes it is. haha. but if my lap top were not to spoil (70% of my lap top screen is blanked out), i wouldn't have to do this...more or less. but somehow i have free time now...thanks to my favourite sergeant in SI. haha.

almost had fever at friday. i was already unwell the day after i finalised the drinking session at clarke quay. luckily the panadol helped me next day (though i was still a little not well when i stepped out of my house)

saturday was kind of a failure...to me bah. plan was to drink overnight...but i guess the fact that we (or i) kept changing spots to hang out did spoil some of the guys' moods. sorry about that! this was done hastily- was thinking of getting guys out before weijun goes to taiwan for ops (didn't know it is gonna be at this saturday initially) but was "brought forward" as kwan yong will be busy for the next few weekends (including the week for his birthday).

darren and i went to orchard first in search for my new leather bag....to no avail. weijun finally gave me some positive response to join us later as he just got back from his operation grandstand 2.

went to liang court to have dinner at serizaya (recommended by darren). man to anybody who sees this post...serizaya is a must try! the food is cheap and seriously good...these are what i ordered:

mushroom soup
escargot (yes it's escargot) with garlic butter sauce
meat sauce baked rice (or something like doria meat sauce)
drink bar (in other words free flow of drinks)

all of the food are served sizzling hot and fresh...it was especially obvious as we ordered mostly dishes that comes with cheese (eg. baked rice). the prices are god damn low too...my main dish (baked rice) costed me only 4 plus dollars!

even though both of us paid for around 19 dollars each (the guys were smart with the setup of menu as each item are too cheap that you wouldn't know that you are paying around the same as any typical restaurant) but i must really say that the food is really worth it. must try!

went to timbre to recce. the queue was short but i personally felt a problem where we can only just eat, drink and chat till a certain point of time where we will have nothing to do. darren then suggested safra gamehaven. sounds good to me at that point of time. then we went over to have a look around (never been inside before). basically there's lan gaming, private rooms (which is kind of popular yet with crap counter service and very limited console games) in which there's 1 console, 1 pc and tv with sofa. besides that there's a bar, a restaurant and a pub.

in the end we gathered with the rest of the guys (weijun, kwan yong, chun leng, bowen, quan yi) at gamehaven and have a try at the private rooms. damn...in the end due to quite a number of circumstances (with the fact we came without reservations) we could only book the room with wii console at 1am.

next we went up to the pub at the 6th floor. the ambiance is still ok...just a pity that the crowd seems little (or maybe we were too early when we arrived- around 9 plus near 10?). had a bottle of heineken and a round of pool before some of them suggested to go have a bite or something.

in the end we went over to hooters (and it seems along the way the plan to get the reserved room was called off) and had more drinking (which i didn't; i had the feeling to puke just after a small bottle of heine- very weak.) and side dishes. fried chicken wings were nice and the atmosphere (not thinking that the waitresses are all foreign talents) was great.

people started leaving after some of them felt tired...so some took cab...some buses. hopefully like what quan yi said, "let's have it next time" and "next time plan properly".

another week in stagmont. didn't sleep well for the past week. no idea why but i kept turning in late and waking up once or twice at the middle of the night.

now to think properly as a trunk comms guy there's quite a high risk involved whenever we were to get the detachment deployed. moments like setting up the antenna (12-15m high), strong currents running in the antennas during transmissions...well. things might change in one fine moment.

plus the radiation from the antennas...well my sergeant told me about this fable that signallers generally get daughters...but i was more of curious on cancer. some cold joke for me.

basically my course mates...made me think whether the fact that i couldn't make it into sispec a regret for me or not...i was right you see. the human factor can affect a person a lot. no that i look down on anyone over there but...they somehow are not very near to those kind of people i wanna look forward to meet. pardon me for being a realist but...ns is really a good time to build up your network. so i certainly hope i have not lost this chance.

this was this indian sergeant who spent the free time in his lesson we had talking about lots of stuff...from his investments to the major events in the future that can affect us...and he reminded me about the possibility of doing some small business through blogspots...hm.

and now...i am on the verge of falling sick...especially when i have organised an overnight drinking session with my poly people...damn. plus for next week i am gonna to have tests and exercise. oh man.

oh ya.

going back to camp soon...went out with weijun yesterday to rot...but realised i need to buy something today. things like meal bags...a new bag (preferably brown leather bag)...and perhaps a new pair of hook-on ear phones.

buying stuff for myself seems to be a growing habit. so are my bad spending habits. oh man. i am starting to feel that me going in this direction- it's gonna be bad. maybe.

looks good...but i doubt i will ever go.

imaginations fly away from me...ideas...ideas they are just ideas.

second week in stagmont. had kind of an unique experience doing guard duty for the last day of 2009. volunteered to do it with my bunk mate; feeling that we can be more or less excluded from the future guard duties. i personally thought that there's nothing much for me to do during the countdown period too...so why not?

but in the end my bunk mate had to be swooped to another guy at the last minute. luckily he happens to be from quebec company in tekong and we hit it off quickly. everything was faster than i thought (the guard duty slot we did was a shift shorter- which means six hours shorter than usual)...except the part on the turnout/stand to which i quite dreaded (a slack one at 4.45am though; guess it's might be because it's the last day of the year...).

but just like what kwan yong said...for my poly side of people most of them are busy with their own stuff (more in a sense their other half lah huh) and there we are doing crap. year after year...same old year.

1st week in SI (signal institute). omg...just like what some netizens and my bunk mates say...it's SLACKMONT CAMP. just imagine a whole ippt training program cancelled just because of some drizzles... -.-

realised that i was posted to trunks comm instead of the initially stated (and interpretted) combat signaller...lucky me. though it is still not as good as those from IS but i guess i should be thankful enough.

the first few days were the hardest to pass...lessons and lessons that made me sleep and sleep. but we are even more lucky as we booked out early this week (thursday) and the same for next week. shiok.

but i volunteered for guard duty at the 31st of december...maybe my friend is right that we got nothing much to lose...with details which i am lazy to elaborate here. so i am gonna be in stagmont for the crossover...

went to a x'mas party at toa payoh at thursday night. almost embarassed myself by going there empty handed (there was supposedly a gift exchange). surprisingly quite a crowd there...heard that some of them are from my friend's singing/dancing classes. saw one girl who gave me a better impression (and kwan yong will start talking about xiao hui if he sees this)...but she's as usual attached (sighs).

ate some drank some and played a little before we had the gift exchange. kind of disorganised but we still manage to get ourselves packing off to catch the last mrt rides.

went to quan yi's house for steamboat yesterday. some small stuff pissed me off from the start...but it's long over now. so we bought some stuff for the steamboat at vivocity before taking cab.

had a short mahjong session (surprised that my luck is still ok) and watched quite an amount of dvds before we started the steamboat proper. quan yi's mum is very generous with the soup's content as she put in dried scallops (those bigger ones) and some ribs.

chun boon and i started to converse more...guess it's good...only thing is that it took us so long. oh ya and that's how i end my x'mas. well.

oh ya. some national service pranks and nice china man animations.

well the blocked leave burns like fire. tomorrow i have to report to stagmont camp. oh yes i am posted to signals institute. hopefully not as combat signaller.

of course there might be worse postings (e.g. field engineer) but i still dread the feeling of going back to serve. perhaps i have too easily slipped back into civilian life.

didn't do much these few days besides going out with friends for a movie etc.

well everything has a reason but i feel as if i am going through a period of time where i mainly do things i am forced to...so 'small' little happenings can be like a punch to my face- though it has not knocked me down...yet.

there's always a reason behind the situation. and i guess from there i realised it's not compulsory...perhaps not needed at all.

what's 'better' than rotting around in home for your blocked leave?

didn't do much interesting for the week...and yet didn't give myself much time to rest too.

wanted to go gym this monday...but the platoon mate i sms-ed to didn't reply to me at all...tried to ask him through msn just now about the message- but to no avail. perhaps i am taking too much from this incident but i am raising questions about him.

was also waiting for chances of having street soccer with some of my platoon mates yesterday. again the sms i sent got me no response. hm...maybe there might be a problem with my mobile service or my phone. i shall see how it goes (but it doesn't seem to be the case as i tried sending one to my mother's mobile).

went out with darren to town just now. oh gosh that springfield jacket is still tempting me from afar...and i wanna get the onto headphones! all these will make me eat way into my already tight allowance for this month...sighs.

will get my posting tomorrow. starting to get nervous after a call from weijun just now. hopefully i don't get into 1st guards...and command school too? keeping my fingers crossed...

The faces all around me they don’t smile they just crack
Waiting for our ship to come but our ships not coming back
We do have time like pennies in a jar
What are we saving for
What are we saving for

There’s a smell of stale fear that’s reeking from our skins.
The drinking never stops because the drinks absolve our sins
We sit and grow our roots through the floor
But what are we waiting for?
What are we saving for

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breathe
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for
So give me something to believe

Somethings always coming you can hear it in the ground
It swells into the air
With the rising
Rising sound
And never comes but shakes the boards and rattles all the doors
What are we waiting for
What are we saving for

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breath
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for
So give me something to believe

I am hiding from some beast
But the beast was always here
Watching without eyes
Because the beast is just my fear
That I am just nothing
Now its just what I’ve become
What am I waiting for
Its already done

Oh

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breath
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for
So give me something to believe

The Bravery- Believe

POP loh!

though up till now i still don't feel upbeat with the fact that i have graduated from tekong but either way at least a stage is completed in my ns life.

the last two days before we had the graduation march are...all about slacking...doing administration stuff and clearing/cleaning of our bunks. oh ya. i got prank on the night before the march...got toothpaste around some parts of my body...but i feel lucky as compared to those who got toothpaste on their armpits (only for those who put their arms behind their heads while sleeping) or toothpaste on their slippers. imagine the feeling they got when they stepped onto their slipper full of toothpaste when they just woke up. the other case had the victim's spectacle lenses in toothpaste too.

the march...frankly speaking i don't really feel tired; with the exception of the period while we marched for the 16km to 20km section (mainly due to the rocky and steep terrain). perhaps it's the effect of knowing that we will pass out after this (which i don't feel so) that pushed many of us onward. but of course there's people who fall out because of small little problems (a.k.a. chao geng) and people who are forced to fall out due to heat exhaustion at the 20th km point. feeling sad for them or not, it seems like they will have to re-do it at this coming saturday.

as the parade goes on i finally felt that it really marks the end of my basic military training...no longer a recruit...

very happy that my father came to attend and put on the jockey cap for me. the surprise package was from the appearance of my mother- who couldn't make it at the start. but i am sorry for giving her an elbow strike while i was trying to put my arms over her for the photo shoot. haha.

my legs finally felt the ache when i stood almost all the way during the mrt trip. after alighting i still had to walk back to my home...especially with the field pack full of stuff.

hopefully with this 'long' blocked leave i can catch up with as many people as possible. and perhaps some rest.

gonna pass out next wednesday. but didn't feel as anxious as before. during the week the parade rehearsals and hectic schedules wore me out. and the weekend...i didn't give myself much time to rest too. in fact the weekend is more like a depressing one.

the oc's evening (we renamed it as commander's evening because our oc didn't attend...ironically) was full of fun and laughter. but there was this moment where i agreed with the host that we should be sad that we will be the last batch of recruits who are called yankee...because there will be something like yankee 2 after us...what kind of lame naming is that.

can't even run properly in the park this morning. i guess my mind wasn't set on that.

i guess i am feeling down not because something happened not to my liking...it's more like something (not to my liking) happened even before i try to do something about it.

perhaps things would be different should i have tried.

but i doubt i can do much either...especially when you have nothing to play onto the table. yet i don't wanna say pass that easily.

it is really funny when you keep doing something -even when you know you will hit straight onto the wall. the pain is always so similar...so familiar.

it's a god damn lucky week for me- booked out at wednesday night, no remedial training and booking in at sunday evening.

but the 16km route march at wednesday was kind of tough. thanks to the inclusion of the other companies we were going at a slower speed...but during the last 4km segment we were only marching as a company itself so the commanders got back to the yankee speed that we are most familiar with...and the speed we most dreaded of.

towards the last 2km or so i volunteered 2 of my buddies to cling their hands onto my field pack; hoping that they will carry on and not give up at the very last part of the march. somehow with them at my backs i felt better- perhaps they motivated me to pull through the march too.

got a new phone and sim card before i went out with ashley to sitex at expo. feel that the show got more boring than the previous show. so as a customer (after so long as a promoter) i was really curious why were there so many people at the show.

in no mood to start doing my peer appraisal which is due next week. i just don't feel like doing anything much now.

maybe it is part of the big prank.