some old birds say this batch of officers and sergeants tend to be more lax on 'dogs' like us...which we didn't believe them at first. and suddenly i felt more like i have already gone through uip...almost anything is possible now...like getting stuff from vending machines, locker layout (in terms of item quantity) for stand by bed not as strict as before, able to bring in mp3 players etc (we even got macdonald delivery at thursday night).
now i am starting to like uip. while the transferred guys over at command comm company might feel even better with their routines, we do not have much to complain about too. now how i wish that this could drag (quite possibly true as people are all busy with exercises) as long as possible...
oh ya. 1 thing is that it seems certain that i will go taiwan at may (unless unforeseen circumstances occur). second is that after the trip we might be posted to driving camp for training...sounds good to me.
anyway there's this guy whom we teased him throughout the week as his admirer (for 3 years leh) flew to australia for studies. as he couldn't send her off personally (he was in camp), he also couldn't gather his courage to confess to her throughout these 3 years. i was also in the 'fun'...poking at him whenever possible. but i felt a little bad as what he is experiencing is just like mine (yes, nicole?).
but on the other hand i was thinking- wouldn't one get more confident to confess should he spend more time to know her and make sure that she's really his cup of tea? or maybe i am too much of a noob ass to make a statement like this.
as there's more time to sit around and rest, i walked into my thoughts again. then i felt that maybe many things could have changed should sheryl be in a different pair of arms...we knew it could be positive for us at some point of time...and it's not like a day or two kind of feeling ( i spent quite a bit of time at poly year 1 to know her better...until she chose another guy -.-). jo might not walked into my eyes...and we could have lasted till now.
i guess i have to pour this out here...as this is one of my regrets till now (3 in total and counting).
i remember we (ashley, lucinda and me) talked about when will we plan to marry in the future at ashley's house. without thinking much i replied 30 plus. while they felt it's kind of late (i naively thought of it as 27-28 previously), i thought with my social circle (guys and more guys) now and my age when i start working (at least 24- true young enough but i will focus on paying back my loan and my career/entrepreneurship first. so money and time all tied up.)...and of course with the fact that i am another noob in the field...well.
i said, "bread first then love mah." at that night. sounds like a hardcore right winger? nah. humans are impressions-based creatures. i don't have something that allows me to do the reverse.
speaking of which i felt disgusted of the stomp series on what attracts guys/girls on the opposite gender. the guys interviewed mainly agreed that the figures of a woman will attract them first. how true. how ugly.
i simply reviewed on myself...i guess partly due to my family background (in which we don't really share with each other how we feel as openly), i feel i need more like a soul mate whom i can confide in...somebody who is more intellectual, independent and has the charm to knock me down and of course caring and understanding. superficial factors wise...perhaps a killer smile too? have a build and height similar to mine? ya that's about all. bonuses wise...then maybe killer legs. oh ya similar fashion sense (or something close to metropolitan).
yeah i said "aiya it's my self esteem that's killing me." i am just being arrogant and be more rational to blind my heart.
some pictures i found over the net. beware apple fans.
oh ya...should i apply for public universities again? because my mind was set on taking private degrees...and now upon closer look, the degrees provided by kaplan...well the partner universities are relatively unknown as compared to those from sim...how how how?
