it just irritates me to find myself repeating the same mistake over and over again. i really have to think and do something properly for this- for such a flaw in my personality will affect the rest of my life.

on the other hand i really have to appreciate those who can still stand my nonsense and repeat the same advice to help me out. they are always there when i need help; they always happen to be there when i screw up (sometimes even unknowingly myself). as little as i want to lose them, but all these anxiety and impatient bit of me surfaced and urged me again to get it done asap.

so it's just simply: listen. think. then reply.

maybe i should start by watching 'Yes Man' again. perhaps everything starts from a 'yes'.

EDIT: Upon looking at this post i realised i might be wrong at what i've said at the previous post. maybe this is how some people work?