dear botak,

i admit i am always bad at telling my friends these kind of stuff but somehow i don't feel like leaving it in my heart like a chunk. but it might be pointless since i doubt you do read my posts very often.

though it's just a few events that made me feel so but i think as time goes i am afraid that the more you hope (and spend more effort) the more disappointed you will be.

actually the actual purpose of me questioning you so much (in your opinion) is because you didn't realise how tight your schedule is. you wanted to ask her out for a movie at 1 plus and you asked me only at 12 plus. nevermind me feeling like being some decoy again, but what irritates me is yet another last minute stuff from you. and the worse part is she might be late for that movie slot and we will have to wait till the next slot at 2 plus. even that you were fine with that when you will have hell of a rushing to do to make it to the ferry terminal back to tekong. in the end i was asked by you why did i have so many questions when i wasn't intending to go.

well ultimately it lies in you botak; it's your path anyway. it's no wrong of you to try but fancy making yourself rushing for time just to suit her schedule (or to see her) is kind of...unfair to yourself? don't you wanna have sometime for yourself after every week of tekong crap (besides all the gaming at home)?

and to all my close friends, please remind me if i were to have such symptoms surfacing next time...i don't like it sticky either.