i am getting more and more nocturnal recently. slept at 2am plus yesterday. looks like i am stubborn with my dear uncle recuperating because of a cancerous tumor in his brain...caused by excessive usage of computers, TVs...in general anything that gets your ass radiated.

first there's 1 at next tuesday. now another 1 at this saturday. oh my god. now i am just like their designated host. or rather that's what i felt.

making me go for all these...i don't it will help. or rather i don't think i will help myself according to what you guys think how i should. if all these are for the post taiwan gatherings then leave me out. i am fine with it. if not...this matter is dragging us down for too long. this crap was started by me. let it end it my way.

though i pity those who don't have a clear idea what happened to me...for once i thought some of them might think i have turned into some big shot face or i don't like somebody in the cliq etc...but that is for you to assume on. don't worry though i will keep in contact with you guys in a one to one manner...hopefully. but as for the group i think it's crappy to stay in this way. i am not happy when i am wandering around in this group. and this group can jolly well stay together without me.

maybe my thoughts on this are all irrelevant and too deep. but either way seems that my body has agreed to it.

so...shall i be your host for the events?