been a while since i last posted...was quite busy with myself and troubled by some issues...thus i got myself into late nights.

went out with some of my friends at friday. but i was late because of mahjong in my company! oh my god. sounds stupid ya? i was so determined to win that i went all the way to the 3rd round before i could only get myself a small win. in the end i left the office at around 7pm when i am supposed to be there with my friends already.

when we had dinner together i suddenly felt that i am more...like being myself perhaps? at least i know i am not hiding myself in 1 corner with the bigger crowd of them. it's scary to see what my friends really are at times i admit. hopefully i can still see them after we graduate...

on the other hand, they somehow seem too enthuastic to ask me join them for this and that...for this i admit maybe i have changed. i am rather tired from handling all these EQ kind of stuff...plus her presence created conflict inside myself again...it's like you really wanna say everything out to her but you saw the future of them...did anybody experience something like this before?

hopefully that bunch who went out with me at friday understand where am i now...but anyway thanks for the friday night.

"it's scary to get close with a friend and yet see his true colours in the end."