背影 - Yoga Lin You Jia 林宥嘉

to me it's 1 of the nicest song i am listening to recently. fine i am slow but the song just brings back memories...good...bad...all of them i guess.

1st bad newsof the day- i guess it's sort of over with my 1 guy friend. it's really a long story between me and him. lazy to rewind. but this incident...just gets me thinking whether i can be someone else's friend or not...the urge to have myself isolated got stronger...

2nd news is that it's confirmed that my uncle's tumour is cancerous. i really have nothing to say- he's still so young...and now he's gonna be bald for a long time due to the whatever therapy...not to say whether he will lose his very caring girlfriend because of cancer...even though it sounds very stupid...but love can stand on no basis especially in this kind of situation...

got me thinking what i will do if i were in my last moments of my life...i guess i will regret here and there...simply because i have a lot of stuff undone...and in anguish that the value of my life is just so little...with no purpose fulfilled...

i will stupidly make phone calls...guess just wanna hear them for the last time. all the very imaginative cells active again...what a waste.