first of week of driving@kaki bukit.

the bunk at sembawang is still ok...only the neighbours and the regulars (specifically BOS duty personnels) that make the life either concerned and irritated at times. food is worse now too.

but besides that...it's quite hectic for this week. guess it's just the starters. highway code practiced (and practiced) and memorised, tested and passed within 5 days. and to think that they say it's harder than the basic/advanced theory test out there...thankfully i passed.

had a first try of the driving simulator at wednesday. damn cool! imagine the thing as a bigger sized simulator cabins that you see in arcades that comes with motion (and some more it's made by lockheed martin). wah. it's fun and quite realistic too.

next comes the actual driving. the instructor is kind with me and i guess i am slowly get the gist of manual cars...but of course the clutch is always a pain in the ass job. the rover jerks when i released the clutch too early.

i've got crazy bunk mates who are so nuts for world cup (the betting side.) 1 guy betted $2k (yes $2000.00) on a match- and lost.

guess jun cheng reminded me yesterday..."what's yours will be yours."

the odds are never that clear in my head. stable relationship. conservative mindset. aiya i am maybe trying to be a sore loser- i myself am not even earning from a proper job. and still wanna compete against some older guy nearing his thirties (soon i guess haha.) and having a stable job...who can attend to her anytime he wants (argh...life of a civilian...)

you get the idea? a guy in his late twenties...obviously wants a stable and lasting relationship. and normally they don't just any how pick a girl from the streets...they want to settle down sooner or later...and thing is she doesn't look like a player in this field...man.

but as long as my heart beats arh...the other side of me is telling me to fight...because i think she's worth a fight (at least for now...till i get to know her better...but god knows when will that be and what has happened by then...you know?)

why? she's still single mah. not that i will break them up (i am not that smart either for this kind of stuff) but just that i will be there once there's any chance. any chance.

moreover ever since after jo's case and sheryl (saw her yesterday at jurong point)...i don't wanna miss a chance if i am sure of it. no doubt i might bleed dry but...if i never try nothing will change. all that went through my head will either come true or demolished.

alright i know this is bad for a conclusion but...the worse thing is what if she's just plainly looking at me as a potential client? it's quite plain for me to see le lah...suddenly she contacts you...along the way leaks that now prudential is now pushing on saving plans/insurance and telling you that next time she can intro me to the plans and help her promote before she leaves...a long fish line bait for a big fish?

BUT THAT'S WHAT I HATE TO SEE! i don't wanna meet her as a potential client. and that's something i can change within a short time...especially after a long while of being a lost contact (i don't think she has a facebook account and it's been ages since she last went to msn.)

i let go of jo that easily. i regretted. i was too foolish for sheryl at that point of time. i regretted. how many more times am i gonna do that again?

i always believe destiny is a mixture of fate and human effort. maybe you might think that i am falling into the category of guys who won't feel shiok if the girl they are getting is not with challenges- but no. i just don't wanna miss another her.

my friend said about counting the number of lines on the side of your clenched fist- i got around three. fine with me. i don't have the habit of having flings and play around. or rather it's a standard excuse of someone who doesn't have the criteria of doing so. that's why i'll have to fight.

war is like men's favourite hobby isn't it? haha.

feel really glad that i managed to get out for lunch with jun cheng (really ps that i didn't bring the souvenir from taiwan for you leh...it's been so long le...)

had nice ramen for lunch at clarke quay central. luckily jun cheng felt it's not bad for his first try. i am just getting back to taste something i missed. his treat.

wanted to watch the movie a team at vivocity after that but there weren't much good timings nor seats (selling fast and it's a last minute decision.) man with toy story, a team and ip man coming up and unwatched...arh!!!

went to giant to get something before deciding to get back to jun cheng's house as he wanted to get something for me. wah. he got me a brown braun buffel leather wallet! picked by him- simple design, size comes good for my pocket and it comes with a coin compartment! lol (because my current one comes without a proper coin compartment.)

thanks leh bro. it's the most decent gift i got this year. you know what i mean.

went to play lan games for a while before going back home. damn it jun cheng's naruto is imba...lol.

just finished packing for tomorrow. still have dishes to wash later. feel quite dreaded to go driving though i am quite looking forward to learn driving someday...but the idea of you being scolded (and i actually mean vulgarities) by the instructor from the moment you board the vehicle till you alight might haunt me for a while later in the night.

thank you jun cheng again for the part from the msn chat. i should follow my instincts...and my feelings too. since it was what i felt that led me on when she said "yay i finally bought something!"

there's no second you. there's no second chance.

yesterday was...

went jogging at morning. was kind of late after chatting a bit of soccer with my father at 6am plus. but never mind.

went out with my mum and sis to the ica building to collect mum's passport. frankly speaking the whole thing ended very quickly. i didn't expect like twenty plus thirty people to be cleared that fast.

went to bugis to walk a bit before i leave them for ion orchard to meet her. shit i was late by a few minutes (first impression mah...) but she said a few minutes was fine. man supplementary idea one.

didn't really planned out where to eat the day before so we spent quite a while thinking of where to eat. in the end she suggested of a cozy japanese restaurant (forgot the name) that sells mainly on katsu don.

almost embarrassed myself when i was told that they don't accept nets. luckily my debit card saved me from the blushes. phew.

so we casually chatted over the meal for like...30 minutes? along the way more supplementray ideas.

she said that i am different.

then we went on a short shopping trip (which i didn't expect for...but also something i will never forget...at least for now.)

we went to far east. she claims to be a lazy person when it comes to dressing so she wants to focus on one piece dresses. truthfully i have to thank her for bringing me into those lady shops...for my sis nor my mum will ever want to enter (price sensitive consumers.) to it's quite an eye opener to be inside- i didn't know that the shops for females in far east are that good.

we went to quite a few shops and really saw quite a few nice dresses. i encouraged her to go try those she liked (her style is more of low profile and sweetie kind) and wah.

she said i am a good shopping buddy. maybe because i gave suggestions on how to dress up and accessorize (again she's lazy to accessorize.) she felt that i know a lot on these and she even asked me whether i am straight or not -.- oh gosh. lol.

but a thought struck me- i am just dressing her up for her boy. i knew it. i knew it at least a year ago. on that faithful IT show. and yet. she left me with the biggest impact yesterday. i know her intention wasn't just purely catching up. still...

mature. cheerful. thoughts on the same lines. bitter sweet.

she had an appointment to catch at 3 plus. and she left...and left me rooted for a while.

suddenly i felt like i am on a shopping spree. to distress? maybe. bought another pair of shoes and almost bought a 2 in 1 piece and a tee. rotted around before i went to chun leng's 21st chalet.

i am sorry chun leng...for i really had no mood to stay over night. and on kwan yong's 'secret' that he shared with me yesterday night...just like what tong jin said..."all of this is a joke."

hey isn't that the same as mine? all of this is just a like a joke. just like life.

initially i was alone in orchard yesterday morning. actually saw quite a bit of stuff that tempted me to buy- new look jacket, zara dress shoes, the idea book and some tops. but perhaps i was feeling damn sian, quite high prices and unwell so i didn't make the purchases.

in the afternoon darren and weijun came. we shopped a bit more (i bought a new look top- the only thing bought.) before we went over to the marina sands for a walk. they treated me to hokkaido@turf city for a dinner buffet before we went home. well i guess their intention wasn't to buy stuff but just treat me to a meal. so ok loh.

reached home to only find out that my father was displeased with me buying so many things (in a sense i have already bought quite a bit at taiwan.) but i realised i still got the appetite for local stuff. bad idea....

but on the overall this weekend doesn't feel like a birthday weekend. it only feels like a weekend of hectic, frustrating and sick weekend.

to my father, today is about getting up early and wanting me to pray according to his method before he goes to work. and look out for any 'abnormal signs' (it's just a bee.) and to get the water in the fish tank replaced asap.

well but thanks to facebook's birthday reminders i got a few post ups on my wall. thanks mark zuckerberg.

happy...birthday.

seems like it's gonna be the worst of all till now. intended to hold a small drink out session tomorrow but...

kwan yong held this event to celebrate everything- xiao hui and jasmine's birthday, first year graduation anniversary and for chun boon and me back from taiwan. not mine. it's at sunday because xiao hui can't make it at saturday. and both kwan yong and myself felt it's weird to meet up on both days...so i just cancelled mine. sounds stupid...maybe. then kwan yong tried to put it at saturday instead with his plans together. come on lah if you wanna celebrate do a proper one leh...use loads of excuses and combine here and there to let your vip xiao hui come (even when she has boyfriend le). i've enough of you le.

weijun suggested treating me to hokkaido tomorrow. and i bet he hasn't even done anything. asked where he intending to ask and his reply was to let me do the planning.

and they have been asking me what i want. it's all here lah. and all these only reflects on who's been here reading. but ironically that's what i wanted initially. so too bad. or rather...you cherish most the things you got by yourself.

ah forget it lah! screw it.

i'll just go on my own tomorrow bah. first to the movie lobby, then maybe a walk down to orchard then to IT show bah. case closed.

going for driving course the week after next. no more slacking. more shit to expect.

container's back. hell's back.

alright i got back here like...at 31st may 4.30am? was quite tired the past few days (resting, went out, catching up) and thus got lazy to blog...lots of stuff to say.

the trip to taiwan...well the first part (i can't say much though) i should say i am lucky to not go out and just help out with the container, wooden crates (many and heavy) and the equipment. i salute to those who were stuck in the area for four whole days doing nothing under the bloody hot sun before pushing out.

blink blink and the first event was over. i guess we were quite efficient with the packing up (yeah leave the hell of unpacking back at singapore) and thus we were left with around two days plus. on the first night there was the happy hour thing where we got to eat and drink (taiwanese beer!) to kind of celebrate.

the second night was nights out for us. i felt it was not worthy and didn't go (hundred plus near two for transportation and you only have at most 3 hours of movement within a small town that we have no info of where to go.)

the third day was a trip one of the amusement parks. initially i didn't want to go (i was determined to save up for the R&R @ kaoshiung and the entrance fee itself is already NT450...SGD20 plus) but my friend upon seeing that i seem to missing out all the fun decided to help me pay the transportation fee without my permission while i was away. at first i felt that i was in a dilemma- i have no intention to go yet i have to pay for it as it was already fixed before i knew it. so too bad loh.

so the next day we reached the park- and guess what? the first ride was their main attraction of the park- the G5.

my friends all started to get all excited and want to have that ride first. oh my god...i shouldn't be here and now i am still pulled along by them to take this ride; just like what i mentioned after the ride, "i haven't taken a roller coaster for ten plus years and now i took this!"

maybe when you are with your ns friends your ego will fan your guts to bet bigger. so alright i took it.

seated on the second row of the two row open cabin, i was still not feeling anything- until it starting moving.

a short straight before the climb over (p.s. the ride is built on a hill slope so we were already on some height) and soon enough it halts right in front of the drop point.

i remember i was shouting while my grip on the bar got tightened. oh wait...it started dropping!

that moment was still in my head- my body was in a near L shape, eyes looking down the height we were gonna dive through within two seconds or so. yeah i was still shouting; only till the drop. so there it goes: down a vertical track on very high speeds for about two seconds before it climbs up and back to the starting point. a short ride to hell and out.

my legs...i admit they were a bit jelly after the ride. but from then i was already sure that the trip was worth it. other rides were still ok- except one that goes swinging 360 degrees. again i went up unknowingly- to almost get a good whoop from it. the starting was fine till the g force started to get stronger and stronger. man i was about to puke. luckily the ride finished shortly after that and i got to recover- too bad for the lady beside my friend though; she started puking shortly before the ride ended. lucky that we didn't get a share of her processed breakfast too.

next day was finally our R&R. was already a bit sian because of the fact that we moved out to kaoshiung on the morning itself, not the night before or whatsoever. never mind. we reached the hotel at around 12 plus to find out that the hotel rooms are not done yet. damn it in the end we can only walk around the streets, have lunch and gather back at 3.30pm to check in.

on the overall the trip was still ok...the mrt station was surprisingly near to us...and the whole of it is in underground. we even got to notice a pretty girl for almost every mrt trip. haha. kaoshiung is not really a place for a feast of eyes but it's still better than nothing.

shopped some shopping districts and the night market. man the stuff they sell are of quality (in terms of fabric and design). price wise is still competitive or even lower than that of singapore's. no wonder i felt like puking when i walked around orchard yesterday. food wise- no need to say. their famous chicken cutlets, papaya milk shake and so many more...man i was informed that i still missed out their buffets and steaks.

so in the end besides the souvenirs i got, i bought for myself 3 tees, 1 formal shorts and 1 vest. the vest is really a buy- it's only about SGD20-30. but the disappointing part was that their tops didn't fascinate me (and that was what i wanted to go for). another thing was that i couldn't find nice dress shoes. lastly i feel kind of wasted not to buy that braun buffel leather wallet which costs just SGD98 when you can only get it at here for like...at least SGD120 perhaps?

oh ya a note about the hotel we stayed in. it's just like a blardy hotel for whores! i remember the auntie who asked us whether we need massage or not just after we went in to the room. we both looked at her and she still replied "of course it's not me who do the massage lah!" oh man. haha. the counter at our floor even has durex condoms too.

and my friend even purposely found the channel 15 which even broadcasts *clears my throat* from the hotel's own hard disk drive all day long.

so the short trip ended with us touching down on changi airport (my ears hurt all the way from KL to singapore). back to the boring life we used to have.

now the taiwan craze is spreading. everybody wants to get to taiwan. i also do feel that i didn't have enough fun and purchases back then. haha. but as to who i will go...must see the crowd first.

yesterday i suddenly received a call from xue wei. she sounds like she's having a good time in prudential and she wants to meet me up for a meal and catchup. hm...

what should i tell kwan yong & co to buy for my birthday? should i just let them buy anything and let it dust in my house? or just get anything i want? but what? shades? wallet? dress shoes? sighs. getting something proper for yourself can be hard at times too.

ironman 2- nice effects but...that's it.

kick ass- didn't regret watching it before i fly.worth it.and just like watchmen.in a more relaxed and shallow manner.

ip man 2- action packed.fast punches.storyline is average. humorous.best!haha.

packing is still undone.no mood to do so.can't get into the mood that i am flying to taiwan.

"let's buy a chance.maybe with that you wouldn't feel that the previous one is wasted away."

ah!!!it's the month of deficit!man i have used all the pay i got for this month...how?!looks like i gotta cut down when i am back...but...how about the 12th?am i gonna follow what the rest of them had done- a treat for them?chun leng suggested to have a night out on that day.but...aiya.

recalled of a crazy idea i had quite long on what should i do on that day- go old folk's home! or actually any home will do. (... ... ...you will think "HUH?!WTF?!", right?)

know what?i remembered at that point of time i thought that since i doubt i can do much to make myself happier (since it's 21st), why not make others happier?though it's only for a short while...

saw an article saying that the actual person the urban peeps don't cherish is actually themselves.point taken.agreed.

i also thought spending the day alone.then celebrate with the rest at another day.but weijun said it's selfish.

i have 0% of feeling ready to go to taiwan. luggage wise and deep inside.

did my heart want to take revenge just like husei hai in hi my sweetheart?but no worries.i got lost halfway.i guess i've never really got the lesson.

i think i am like an onion.nobody bothers to take a look at me.and should a silly girl ever gets curious (again) and starts wanting to know what's in the bud- every layer of me will get her into tears.some might give up halfway.and for those who ever got into the bud...all they saw was just a bud.nothing else.

"guess what?one of my regrets is not to step onto that ddr machine and just dance like a clown."

WARNING- hokkaido@turf city really serves good food!jun cheng and i went there to have the ala-carte dinner buffet.

watching hi my sweetheart recently.the main guy is always rich.good looking (show luo mah.) and romantic- perfect isn't it?

fairy tales also end with "and they live happily ever after." but how do they achieve it?what's after the story?it's always the prince who can earn this ending.maybe the word 'happily' is something very general or shallow to describe it.

i guess no matter how much i dress up or even impress the whole downtown...

it's only skin.

maybe a good lover starts from a good family.

"aiya sk take a look at yourself before other things..."

i say what you see is what you get.

i don't blame anyone for this comment. i can see it for myself. the couples on the street...makes you think that the guys up the skies are fair? a face for a face perhaps? haha.

they say i am too serious. i say my face is born dead and my brain is made of wood. hm? tin woodman? haha.

so i got a peek of my past...wait. where did they go?! then i realised that they were all in their own future...sometimes it feels like eventually i will be alone. but so fast? where's the problem? which part of me?

got a nice pair of dress shoes from JB recently. was very lucky to have my officer approve my overseas leave. still feels that it's stupid to disallow people under uip to go overseas (by right).

been playing quite a bit of soccer in camp...but i ponder whether i should continue playing or not...especially when your team mates just play for fun.

maybe i should increase the laps i do for jogs at saturdays. last bit of belly fats need to go! and more muscle toning! but size wise...maybe bigger upper arms? but on the other hand i might risk becoming too tight for some of my shirts. (which 1 already is on the verge of becoming so)

going to taiwan for exercise real soon. any orders for anything at taiwan?

still a little impatient to start some small little business. what a good time for me to do so peeps, isn't it?

feels wasted on a shirt seen at bugis just now. if not for the quality of the fabric...

been lazy to post something for the past weeks...partly being lazy and moreover there's nothing much interesting for me to write on.

the weekdays in the camp got us very busy- helping the rest with all the moving of crates to pack up for shipment. more to come next week.

good news- i am going to taiwan! and the R&R (Relax & Recreational) is free and easy!

bad news- the R&R is only 2 days 1 night. and it's only at kaohsiung...man. a bit demoralised by this.

up till now some of my platoon guys have been assigned to various detachments for the exercise...not me though. *crosses fingers*

went out with darren just now to various places. weijun was supposed to come along but thanks to his over night mahjong session yesterday night he overslept and never got out.

went to smu first to hand up my application documents. then to kinokuniya to get a book of star wars for some kid. my mother sounds kind of reluctant when i finally found a suitable book that the kid will like but with the price of 40 plus dollars. and i felt very tempted to buy another book on innovation...since i have finished my googled. then window shopped (bought a pair of bermudas) around before settling down for dinner at serizaya@ liang court (as usual the nice food...only at 17 dollars!).

so many stuff to buy! endure...must endure till the taiwan trip...or maybe i can get more next friday when i go to malaysia to shop?

just to share with this upcoming adobe photoshop cs5...damn it's really good with its content aware feature. watch it to find out:

well this week...i guess i experienced quite a change of culture when the guys from the trunk comm company finally take us over.

some old birds say this batch of officers and sergeants tend to be more lax on 'dogs' like us...which we didn't believe them at first. and suddenly i felt more like i have already gone through uip...almost anything is possible now...like getting stuff from vending machines, locker layout (in terms of item quantity) for stand by bed not as strict as before, able to bring in mp3 players etc (we even got macdonald delivery at thursday night).

now i am starting to like uip. while the transferred guys over at command comm company might feel even better with their routines, we do not have much to complain about too. now how i wish that this could drag (quite possibly true as people are all busy with exercises) as long as possible...

oh ya. 1 thing is that it seems certain that i will go taiwan at may (unless unforeseen circumstances occur). second is that after the trip we might be posted to driving camp for training...sounds good to me.

anyway there's this guy whom we teased him throughout the week as his admirer (for 3 years leh) flew to australia for studies. as he couldn't send her off personally (he was in camp), he also couldn't gather his courage to confess to her throughout these 3 years. i was also in the 'fun'...poking at him whenever possible. but i felt a little bad as what he is experiencing is just like mine (yes, nicole?).

but on the other hand i was thinking- wouldn't one get more confident to confess should he spend more time to know her and make sure that she's really his cup of tea? or maybe i am too much of a noob ass to make a statement like this.

as there's more time to sit around and rest, i walked into my thoughts again. then i felt that maybe many things could have changed should sheryl be in a different pair of arms...we knew it could be positive for us at some point of time...and it's not like a day or two kind of feeling ( i spent quite a bit of time at poly year 1 to know her better...until she chose another guy -.-). jo might not walked into my eyes...and we could have lasted till now.

i guess i have to pour this out here...as this is one of my regrets till now (3 in total and counting).

i remember we (ashley, lucinda and me) talked about when will we plan to marry in the future at ashley's house. without thinking much i replied 30 plus. while they felt it's kind of late (i naively thought of it as 27-28 previously), i thought with my social circle (guys and more guys) now and my age when i start working (at least 24- true young enough but i will focus on paying back my loan and my career/entrepreneurship first. so money and time all tied up.)...and of course with the fact that i am another noob in the field...well.

i said, "bread first then love mah." at that night. sounds like a hardcore right winger? nah. humans are impressions-based creatures. i don't have something that allows me to do the reverse.

speaking of which i felt disgusted of the stomp series on what attracts guys/girls on the opposite gender. the guys interviewed mainly agreed that the figures of a woman will attract them first. how true. how ugly.

i simply reviewed on myself...i guess partly due to my family background (in which we don't really share with each other how we feel as openly), i feel i need more like a soul mate whom i can confide in...somebody who is more intellectual, independent and has the charm to knock me down and of course caring and understanding. superficial factors wise...perhaps a killer smile too? have a build and height similar to mine? ya that's about all. bonuses wise...then maybe killer legs. oh ya similar fashion sense (or something close to metropolitan).

yeah i said "aiya it's my self esteem that's killing me." i am just being arrogant and be more rational to blind my heart.

some pictures i found over the net. beware apple fans.

oh ya...should i apply for public universities again? because my mind was set on taking private degrees...and now upon closer look, the degrees provided by kaplan...well the partner universities are relatively unknown as compared to those from sim...how how how?

oh ya before i start busying back to the dog camp...

farewell my dear friend ashley!

it feels too soon for you to go back. but oh well...

either way, have a smooth trip back and i hope while you start leading a more care-free life without the burden of your society commitments, you must also work on hard on your studies leh...

all the best.

i would say it's quite a weird timing for me to post something here now. supposed to be at outside but was called off at the last minute. so i guess it's gonna be a stagnant weekend at home before i go back to hell. or maybe i should just find something else to do besides rotting outside.

went to jurong camp at wednesday morning for report. had no idea at all of what was gonna happen to me. everything gets worse. out of proportion standardisation, regimentation and so many crap are gonna to be thrown at my face during our unit induction programme (uip). basically due to the culture of the camp, imagine the months ahead of me to be a tekan session.

first day of uip- setting up of our bunk. we had to do everything ourselves- moving cupboards, bed frames and cleaning the room within a short time. well since it's meant to be a tekan session we got ourselves awarded with 50 push ups and 100 crunches just for stand by area. needless for me to say the stuff for the rest of the day i guess.

standardisation...yes. everything must be consistent for us- from the quantity of of our hangers hanging in our cupboards to the brand of our toothpastes in our field pack. logical? for those who are thinking at this point of time, i guess you need more cow sense.

three days were enough for us. i wonder how am i gonna take it just for the week ahead. the feeling to down my pes status is so strong in my mind. but on the other hand it will also mean i will part with my friends who came along with me from stagmont camp. what complexity.

so after getting out from the camp yesterday i got to home dry despite the heavy rain (a big thanks to wei keong's parents who offered me the trip back home). got back, unpacked my stuff and went over to ashley's house for dinner. lucinda (my secondary classmate) came shortly and we had a fair bit of chat over at the dining table.

then we moved up to her room to continue till around...1.30am? well time really flies and she's gonna go back at monday night. at the best to you ashley...tahan a bit more and you will be graduating with a degree cert leh...while i am still wasting my time off in our 'decisive' force.

slept at 2am. and was able to wake up at 7am...surprisingly. kind of pushed myself to go jogging as planned. and now here i am staying at home doing nothing much...sighs. everything's stuck.

didn't really feel like posting...because soon i will rest, wake up and report to jurong camp. maybe it should spell like hell too.

supposedly to go malaysia with my parents to visit my relatives yesterday...in the end we decided to play safe due to the fact that nobody from the camps are informed. so i was home alone for a day or so.

should say it's dumb for me not to inform the rest that my house is empty for last night. so after paying a visit to ashley's house i rushed off to town for a last minute arrangement with darren and weijun for movie. well thanks to my last minute we can't really get tickets with suitable time slots for 14 blades nor little big soldier (there was a slot for little big soldier but the only available seats left were 2 rows away from the screen -.-)

so in the end we went to ashton @ cathay for late dinner. darren and i talked mainly on the business and stuff (sadly what darren said about the local IT industry is true) while weijun mainly shared his experience when he was at taiwan.

when we finished our dinner i suddenly had the urge to go to the sofa seats at the cathay movie lobby. the building beside cathay (think it's an art school) is so tall now...and i kept staring at smu- one of the dreams i thought i can achieve 3 years back while seated at the same spot.

well at that point of time nobody told me i can lose 2 dreams at once. but the aftertaste has long gone away from my throat.

maybe all these that i've brought upon myself is gonna spur me to just focus on my career.

maybe i should say thanks to hello kitty and ah meng.

p.s.- get well soon for ashley's dad.

2 months flew just like that...time in the signal institute is especially fast. so now i will have to move on to my new unit (even though i know i will miss some of my bunk mates- especially edmund foo aka werewolf/slut. haha.)

good news- i didn't report to the camp at friday (we got posted out at thursday)...so we will go there at wednesday morning. oh ya and some how i received the best detachment award. -.-

bad news- i got posted to 3rd battalion! man...god knows what will happen to me at there...

so today i went to watch true legend with weijun and yonghui...was almost late for the show thanks to me...haha. anyway the movie...if i am lenient i should say it's still ok bah...but i would prefer to re-watch ip man again.

got back home a while before i set off to clementi to meet jun cheng up for dinner. usual stuff to chat about...getting more and more confident bah i would say...as ideas are starting to solidify.

damn the distributor company for my newsweek subscription. nothing has been done till now on my additional subscription to forbes asia. don't force me to complain to case.

well quite a number of things happened last sunday. you got a poly classmate whose birthday is around now and yet she 'purposely' places her party celebration at 13th feb and wishes us to go...as usual the problems between chun boon and qin yi and us can't taking it further...kwan yong and derrick's birthday gift/braun buffel wallets (which quite turns me off on what i can expect from them for my birthday, judging from what was bought.)

then this week is kind of unlucky for my entire platoon. got punishments here and there- nights out turned into stand by bed...defaulters parade yesterday after quite a long while of detachment exercise (but somehow we managed to escape and got it scheduled at next friday instead...better than nothing la huh).

next week wise it's gonna be quite tough. monday till end of tuesday is our summary exercise...kind of nervous after seeing how badly we did on the overall to get our link up. straight after that are radio tests for theory and practical and then the 16km route march at wednesday. so thursday we will finally attend the pass out ceremony to get our vocation badge...

which makes me feel confused...for the last week we shall spend in signal institute (the week after next)- the lesson schedule are all computer lab lessons. if that's so why make the exercises, tests and route march so packed up?

oh well. no matter what we can only suck it up and follow.

gonna go for kwan yong's 21st birthday @kallng leisure park kbox later (of course after going to other places to shop first haha). just got message from that the ice skating will be cancelled and stuff...sighs. on one hand perhaps the number of people going is really low...but maybe he still hasn't got over xiao hui too. i understand.

was talking to ashley at last sunday in camp. suddenly she talked about going to taiwan together with her cliq towards the end of the year...sounds good...but i also realised something...well. it's either by then i can break the barrier or the trip turns bad for me or i will choose not to go. sorry ashley if i were to do the later...

i only told others that it's ironic that you can see clearer the person you admire when he/she is with somebody else. but this time...somehow i felt that i shouldn't have done that. or i guess i was too late.

boring week (but lap top is finally back!). tests...SI evening (which turned out to be very disappointing- be it our cheer performance or the stuff from musical and drama company) and of course lessons and more lessons. and next week will be even tougher- setting up drills and exercise at friday...oh no. just thinking of it makes me feel down.

thanks to my sergeant i managed to escape from the camp at 7pm as he likes to make us pissed off during area inspection. i certainly hope jun cheng didn't wait too long for me at clementi.

reached there and had a kfc meal (where my sense of rubbish was suddenly revived...perhaps it's too long since i last met him...but it doesn't make sense, right? haha.) while we chatted quite a bit. but it was mainly on our 'big plan'...haha. while i don't really have much confidence whether this plan will work or not...but i am quite sure the concept is new...and should i research more and develop it on i am quite confident it can be quite a big hit.

went across the causeway yesterday. reached there at around 11 plus and my mother and i started to shop around in city square. chanced upon a nice pair of 'fred perry' shoes @109rm. tempted but i wanted to look around for more options (which in the end that's the only shop that sells it). we dragged the timing for lunch; since i don't really feel hunger when i shop. and guess what? when we finally wanna settle down at kenny roger's, the waiter said they will be closed at 1pm. my mother went around asking...damn it. the whole damn mall is closing down at 1pm due to the passing away of their dear sultan. so both of us hurriedly down to the new year cookies/pastries stalls @ 1st floor and got some stuff.

so in the end it totally spoil my mood for the whole day. god damn it.

(thanks jun cheng for offering to buy that pair of shoes for me but i have not even tried on it yet...and i feel better if i were to really confirm on buying on the spot.)

going out later to get kwan yong's 21st birthday gift @ marina square. while i have already missed out some movies (i do not have to be sad though...haha.), i certainly don't wanna miss another- daybreakers. hopefully i can watch it next weekend. but first thing first. i first pray that it doesn't drag later. for those who know the pattern of my poly classmates...you all get what i mean.