the bunk at sembawang is still ok...only the neighbours and the regulars (specifically BOS duty personnels) that make the life either concerned and irritated at times. food is worse now too.
but besides that...it's quite hectic for this week. guess it's just the starters. highway code practiced (and practiced) and memorised, tested and passed within 5 days. and to think that they say it's harder than the basic/advanced theory test out there...thankfully i passed.
had a first try of the driving simulator at wednesday. damn cool! imagine the thing as a bigger sized simulator cabins that you see in arcades that comes with motion (and some more it's made by lockheed martin). wah. it's fun and quite realistic too.
next comes the actual driving. the instructor is kind with me and i guess i am slowly get the gist of manual cars...but of course the clutch is always a pain in the ass job. the rover jerks when i released the clutch too early.
i've got crazy bunk mates who are so nuts for world cup (the betting side.) 1 guy betted $2k (yes $2000.00) on a match- and lost.
guess jun cheng reminded me yesterday..."what's yours will be yours."
the odds are never that clear in my head. stable relationship. conservative mindset. aiya i am maybe trying to be a sore loser- i myself am not even earning from a proper job. and still wanna compete against some older guy nearing his thirties (soon i guess haha.) and having a stable job...who can attend to her anytime he wants (argh...life of a civilian...)
you get the idea? a guy in his late twenties...obviously wants a stable and lasting relationship. and normally they don't just any how pick a girl from the streets...they want to settle down sooner or later...and thing is she doesn't look like a player in this field...man.
but as long as my heart beats arh...the other side of me is telling me to fight...because i think she's worth a fight (at least for now...till i get to know her better...but god knows when will that be and what has happened by then...you know?)
why? she's still single mah. not that i will break them up (i am not that smart either for this kind of stuff) but just that i will be there once there's any chance. any chance.
moreover ever since after jo's case and sheryl (saw her yesterday at jurong point)...i don't wanna miss a chance if i am sure of it. no doubt i might bleed dry but...if i never try nothing will change. all that went through my head will either come true or demolished.
alright i know this is bad for a conclusion but...the worse thing is what if she's just plainly looking at me as a potential client? it's quite plain for me to see le lah...suddenly she contacts you...along the way leaks that now prudential is now pushing on saving plans/insurance and telling you that next time she can intro me to the plans and help her promote before she leaves...a long fish line bait for a big fish?
BUT THAT'S WHAT I HATE TO SEE! i don't wanna meet her as a potential client. and that's something i can change within a short time...especially after a long while of being a lost contact (i don't think she has a facebook account and it's been ages since she last went to msn.)
i let go of jo that easily. i regretted. i was too foolish for sheryl at that point of time. i regretted. how many more times am i gonna do that again?
i always believe destiny is a mixture of fate and human effort. maybe you might think that i am falling into the category of guys who won't feel shiok if the girl they are getting is not with challenges- but no. i just don't wanna miss another her.
my friend said about counting the number of lines on the side of your clenched fist- i got around three. fine with me. i don't have the habit of having flings and play around. or rather it's a standard excuse of someone who doesn't have the criteria of doing so. that's why i'll have to fight.
war is like men's favourite hobby isn't it? haha.
