driving course for five and half days every week. so it's just driving, tests, psp and newsweek catching up. yes i would love to drive next time...but driving everyday seems to become more and more of a chore. never mind i can still take that.
weekend wise i am getting more and more lazy i guess. perhaps the fact that i've only got around a day more before i book in again makes me feel damn dreaded moments before i depart for camp. and yet i am still assigned with chores at home by my mum. it's dumb to escape out to town just for this but more chores means lesser time...i need more time for myself.
had a gathering with the ns guys at holland village crystal jade for steamboat buffet. well frankly speaking it's just so so (and some even said the experience is good even though the area is cramped up, little selection of food choices etc.) but never mind. gathering mah.
initially they wanted to do it as a bbq. so i paid five dollars for the food and stuff mah...suddenly they had a change of plans...and without me knowing they used the five dollars to buy a birthday gift for a guy in my platoon instead...seriously. wtf should i say. i am someone who doesn't like unplanned stuff. and ironically it seems like everybody were informed beforehand. yeah i was informed eventually. right before i was my way home to come out for the dinner.
and it's like...out the blues we are celebrating birthdays...aiya! maybe it's because my 21st was a screw up. maybe it's because i am a miser.
fine. after that they wanted to watch a movie in town. initially they were saying inception (which i really catch it asap) but changed to "something else" (i should say anything else since they came unplanned, didn't check the timings and seatings while knowing it's saturday.) like what i feel for my poly classmates and since my good buddy left to meet his girl, i decided not to waste my time and left for home.
i realised...there's nothing else i can try about her. you can't beat some guy who can provide financial security. especially when you compare a poor ns guy against a guy in mid 20s who works overseas...you can roughly gauge the pay huh. he's just another tall skinny guy man...but why him?! maybe that's where the numbers (age, savings in bank) come in.
but i think the most important point is that we are already worlds apart from the start. financial status...the environment that we are in now (work compared to just ns.) please don't tell me that all these don't matter...yeah i know. i can climb up the social ladder but by the time i do so my guess is she's already cut the wedding cakes with that guy. drama is a depiction of life but never the other way round.
"you can be a hundred bucks poorer but you might be a hundred worlds away from those richer."
damn now i need to get down soon to help carry stuff for my father. so how can my life be?
