i am starting to love driving. though for the start of the week i did get nervous driving the iveco 3 tonner for the first time, but eventually i got the hang of it. i have to especially mention this instructor by the name of gordon goh who took me for yesterday. since he's a old time driver during his ns days (driving the old mercedes tonner- which has its hand brakes at the right side and cranky gearbox...oh god. i am lucky.); he taught me a lot from a driver's point of view. he made me feel very relaxed throughout the whole trip and shared with me his experiences, own techniques and stories. damn nice guy. thank you again sir.

my friend asked to join another network marketing group. the more i look at it the more i feel that the products are just mere what you can see on the shelves. but again this spiked me to restart my thoughts on opening a blogshop. i currently have an idea though. but by looking at how the other shops are...they don't look promising to me. sounds bad. but that might also mean a chance for me. should keep this in view.

as i wish to but sometimes it's hard for me to open my mouth to get back the old debts from people. because they are not really like big amounts that can make me go broke...and they are close to me too. maybe it's just me who mixes personal and monetary issues together. like what the chinese say- "to talk about money means to harm a relationship."

it's still drizzling out there but a song struck me just now:

下雨天

下雨天了 怎么办 我好想你

我不敢打给你 我找不到原因

为什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉

沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺（疲惫）

谁和我一样 等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我 能让你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不出哪些差别

结局那还能多明显

别说你会难过 别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

i am just afraid that i would be lying dead should you ever come back to me with a chance.