i am strange. very strange.

my heart has all the wildness while my brain is always the one restraining my heart and clearing up the mess.

sounds stupid huh? perhaps that's what people say as "Geminis have split personality".

it's only rather sad that most of us have to do what we need to do, not what we want to do. but speaking of this, if i can choose what i want to do, what would i do? most probably i will eventually waste my life off. contradictions...

oh well. my principle is simple. life is about finding your value. the value comes with a purpose for life. i will find that purpose and fulfill it. i might choose to go beyond that purpose...but of course that will be very far off from now...

main point: never believe that the stage you are standing now is the best. life's about finding a bigger stage for youself.

i guess that's the main idea that keeps me not that easily distracted from other stuff bah...ironically my mind tends to be on the extreme to keep my stand firm and correct. wierd freak.

but just somehow...all the remnant thoughts...i wouldn't say they haunt me. perhaps i just don't know how to handle it yet. i once believed that in order to get rid of the old stuff get a new one. this is never correct. at least to me. somehow we are just reminding each other of the past. childish. i know it myself. it's now a battle of whether my heart or brain will take over one fine day.