like i said i tried to sort out the stuff i had yesterday...and my conclusion is...i don't think i have many bargaining chips this time round. it's already a privilege. hard to push my/our luck much further.
the motivation to run is getting stronger despite the unknown source of discipline and drive (imagine me wanting for a run again tomorrow.) am i too tight and restrictive on why am i doing this and that?
have a sudden feel of joining both the track and field team and student council in sim. with these, hopefully a part time job and academics i think i am really filled up to the brink.
how how how? i feel like i am riding on my ego like a tiger while dragging my brain along. really mentally tiring.
