i really don't understand what's left in my family. maybe my sister. my father is a learning example for me (bad traits wise.) and my mother? doesn't know how to get her own life and just clinging on me and pestering me.
yesterday i almost got myself quarrelling with her. with her usual short sighted self she asked "so you are not willing to go with me?" (sunday trip to malaysia)
i already said fine. but solely because she's not feeling well. "i don't know how to explain everything to you."
how am i supposed to tell her to stop pestering me every time she has to do something on her own? or to tell her almost everybody in the family is dependent on me for matters big and small- and yet i can't depend on them when i need help? or to ask her how much does she understand me to help me at all?
is this what family life supposed to be? is this how my life is gonna be? i am sure this is not what i want but what can i do?
perhaps i am the only one in and out of this blogspot and i need attention now- but my initial objective is to let it be low profile so that people will not be easily react to whatever i say. ironic huh?
i am really getting sick of everything- life stays the same when you are pushed to the limits everyday.
