there's so many things in my head that needs to be decided:

- university admission

- bank loan

- ord trip

is this the supposedly adult life that i always looked forward to when i was still a secondary school kid?

and the worst of all is that the tower card still lingers in my mind.

maybe you shouldn't have appeared again. and i should just keep on preparing myself till i feel confident again...but when will that be?

tsk...f*ck it.