if it's just a few per day maybe still ok. but we were doing it almost everyday. and some more 3 or 4 such spikes for three times a day. under some tough grounds too.
blisters muscle aches all these are still manageable. then suddenly the armskote was handed over to me. with lots of catching up, checks and stuff to do on top of the daily training. i was busy with it even till the last minute before i can book out. either way it's gonna be a very busy period for me till november bah...with all the trainings...even armskote course and test on our operational proficiencies. but of course i will still be fine during weekends...just being more busy.
there was this period where we had to be split into various pairings to work together. this pairing will last for the rest year ahead- till we finish ns. so it's something quite important. out of unforeseen circumstances i had to make a decision of swooping places with another guy. but fact is i can't decide- there's pairs who don't want to be swooped away, people who want to just stick to the vehicle they are good at...
so that was the moment when everybody were looking up to me for my decision and yet selfishly guarding their own interests. the details are not worth elaborating but either way i was damn disappointed with all the two-faces.
am waiting for ops recall now...praying hard that we don't have to be recalled...please...feel like going out to town...but out all alone?
she sms-ed me again. but the conversation seems a bit... awkward. aiya...i am distracting myself away while i am distracted. what a joke.
and now looks like i've made ashley feel worse. to think of it i guess i will face something similar too when she (might) moves away. sighs. in the end i am still a bad talker.
