another week of mental torture for me. failed for another two times. it's too surprising to be true. especially for the latest one...everything was fine till the point i stopped my vehicle in front of a controlled cross junction which has a area of slope. i was clear of that yes. in the driving centre itself there was no such problem when i moved off from the slope to perform the turn about. and yet. the moment that i rolled back on the public road will be something i will probably never forget.

and there was another moment that's still fresh in my mind till now. had my driving lesson (or rather remedial) from the mandai camp to yishun area for the first time. fine. not much of a problem for me. till that point where my heart stopped. just like that deja vu when i was hanging up before the drop in the G5 cabin back at taiwan.

it was in the yishun neighbourhood. i was driving at the fourth gear along the right lane of a two lane road...gonna make a right turn ahead. i noticed a crowded bus stop on my right. everything seems normal.

the next second a school kid dashed out to the front of my vehicle. yeah my heart stopped. my brain managed to send the last command to my leg to get to the foot brake before it went blank. at the same time my instructor pulled the hand brake. loud screeching noise. clear tyre tracks behind. engine stalled. but was luckily on time to avoid that son of a bitch from tasting my fender.

and yet he continued running across. and there was another car (which i barely noticed in amidst of all these) on my left which my instructor was worried for- should the driver not notice in time, that kid might have flew into the air for the last time. luckily for the kid again.

i took around 3 seconds to bring myself back to start the engine. no response from it for a few times. the crowd at the bus stop were looking. fine. at least they didn't see my legs getting jelly.

went out to orchard to meet darren up (surprisingly i still had the mood.) man saw this black leather jacket from river island with nice gold zips which are not properly aligned. $199. i would still have to pay $150 even with that pathetic $50 capitamall voucher.

too bad then. later saw the red jacket i was very interested in at vivocity zara. $49.90- but with no sizes i can properly fit in. another barren trip.

maybe things spiced up a bit when kim suddenly appeared in zara. ah so weijun wanted to pass her her birthday gift. later on the way back home weijun claimed that he's over with her...maybe i am too sensitive or the typical mando-pop songs are always about fallouts or breakups...but his selection of songs seem to speak otherwise. but the main part is that there was a guy following her after we parted (which i never noticed till darren told me.) oh god. tall. skinny. wears a ralph lauren polo. plays with his iphone quietly at a corner while we chatted for a bit. in zara men some more. darren said he's wooing her. but to me it sounds more like stalking her. but she's going to club afterwards. so...as compared to her rather chic outfit...ralph lauren polo, jeans and sneakers for club? maybe some people likes to have those...you know those sure get deals or something.

immediately i teased weijun about the cost of his outfit. darren said he's from the working class. which i realised...maybe most people would only consider going out with people of the similar social class. we are still poor kids after all. that's why i guess i am right...career is ultimately more important.

went to carnivore@vivocity for the second time- within a month. god it's $45++ per pax and their drinks are mainly priced at $8...and for both of the occasions i was giving treats- once for my mum's birthday and this time as a group giving treat to weijun's 22nd birthday. so hope that you can understand my pain in the pockets.

as for those who know i shouldn't have beef in the presence of my parents, the first trip was kind of wasted for me. maybe i am back to redeem for my "sins"...wahaha.

to all peeps, especially meat lovers, trust me. carnivore is a must go. the way they get the meats done is certainly the best i ever tried. i personally recommend the fish and lamb as a must try. service is great too. the dollars spent were worth the brazilian experience. well my weight shedding plans...at least was forgone for that buffet dinner.

so had lots of fun...lots of meat...and i certainly don't understand why i was more lively and cracked a lot of jokes. then we moved off to the chevrons for karaoke. more people joined- with a simple birthday cake to celebrate with.

ps: jun cheng wanna watch the expendables? haha.