it's the first time i felt so lazy to post anything here during the past one month or so. many things happened along the way...but the main thing is i am gonna pass out soon!

let's start from field camp. i would say it's the toughest period for me in the entire bmt phase. field disciplines have to be kept at all times and it was really a big change of environment for me. so much so that i start to loathe outfield now. in times of shit i also came to see the real faces of people (i think so); especially those from my section. while i feel disappointed to see some really shrink away from extra work, there were also guys who are always there to help others out.

i would really like to thank all those who encouraged me with their letters- my family, jun cheng and miss cheng. was very surprised that i could receive not one but three letters. at that point of time even though i never had the thought of defending my country before but at least i feel i should persevere to protect those i value and cherish.

the week after that was mainly on our live range. another tough experience for me. thanks to our oc who wants as many marksmen as possible, i had to re-shoot and re-shoot even though i have already passed the range. i got so sicked of it as i kept shooting from day to night (i actually attended all the re-shoots at daytime and thankfully there's only 1 round of night shooting for everybody) and of course the rifle maintenance after that also proved to be a headache for me.

our oc wants us to win the best company award and wants us to go all out for the games day...which is like...never mind. and guess what? i am in the drill squad. too bad i don't have the skills to play volleyball or frisbee nor the strength to join the tug of war...and too bad there's no soccer. all the precision drills are making me go dizzy and tired in the right arm.

this week was on situational test. last outfield crap in bmt. but the weather wasn't that great throughout the event and i didn't get a good assessor when i was appointed as the in charge for one of the stations.

think i did a big mistake when i rejected to try going to command school. simply said i am cutting down my chances to raise through the ranks. not having enough time to consider doesn't seem to be a good reason too.

next came the peer appraisal. i thought i tried my best to rank my platoon mates in order from my judgement but upon hearing some other comments after the peer appraisal...well maybe i am wrong for some of the inputs.

almost had confinement this week due to rifle stun during the field camp. but somehow i only got remedial training this week. though it was kind of hectic but it was still better than confinement and some sol guys i met at friday night.

so i booked out at thursday evening, met up with jun cheng at bugis friday afternoon, then booked in at the night later (when i lost my handphone...damn. lost all my contacts now.). went out with weijun yesterday to bugis again to find his saver plan agent and chill out. saw this pair of very pale blue jeans selling at forty plus dollars. tempted me so much but didn't purchase it as the thought of spending on a new phone means my expenditure is shooting up only days after getting my pay. but in the end i've decided to more or less buy it next week. haha.