just went to the chalet with my poly friends...how should i say it? so so? like being an extra?

thought it's just a chalet...but the first time i see them together...what's that feeling? bitter? mushy?

i feel like i have to cooperate with the rest to let them have more time together...so...to me it's just like a chalet for them instead...with the extras as...decoys? huh?

even had "star gazing" with everybody when the weather was bad. -.-

perhaps that is a mixture of jealous and enviousness. though that doesn't really bother me but i guess that might be one of the last few outings i am gonna attend...